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The
Story of the Desert
The
trip to Damascus:
I
sat on a camel, and a wagon passed before the camel. (You
wanted to go to work in Damascus?)
Yes. I sat on the camel, and a wagon passed by in front of, and it
got very scared, so it got up with great fury, it rose, and I didn't
secure myself, and it threw me to the sky! So everyone said, “He
died, there is no hope for his life. How did he die? He received a
blow, a deathblow!” H”Y did a miracle that I fell on a mountain
of straw, I remained alive. This was in the season of fall, the time
when they cut the wheat harvest, so there was a mountain with straw,
I fell on the mountain of straw. Afterwards (you got an
infection in your eyes?)
Oy vay! Such a sickness! It is miracles that I was able to see for
the rest of my life after what happened with my eyes, (three
day, you didn't see, correct?)
Yes, it was more, I did not see, the eyes were inflamed. I did not
see anything with my eyes. My father was blind, so I saw that I had
become blind like my father. I became extremely weak, and I had such
pain, such pain in the eyes, that it was impossible to live, to bear.
In any event, a few days passed and I got a little better... a
little. But I didn't have strength, I did not see with my eyes. They
told me that there is a group of twenty men that are travelling to
Tiberius. I said, “Good, I want to return to Rabbi Yisroel, I want
to return in teshuva.”
Nu, but I didn't have strength. I didn't have... I didn't eat, nor...
and I didn't drink, the agony....
I
wasn't human, just dead, that's how I went with them, and they went,
and there was a Sephardic Jew there that had a store in the village,
yes. So I was with him during the time that my eyes were hurting, I
was next to him, and he had a donkey, and he went with them to
Tiberius. I said, “I also want Tiberius, I don't want to work, I
want to return in teshuva, I want to return to Rabbi Yisroel.”
Good. They went, but I was not able to continue, I was not able to
proceed, I did not have shoes, I did not have clothing, I was sick,
and the feet? The feet, and the eyes, and the... and the starving,
and the pain.
In
any event, I remained, they went and I remained. Who can retell? I
remained without bread, without water, without anything, yes. Nu?
What can come from this? I saw where I am to be found, what can be
with me, at night the lions will eat me, the wild beasts, and no one
would know, and I pictured n my mind, “they will eat me, I am
alive, I will live, and they... will eat me alive, and they will eat
the hands and the feet, and they will eat me.” I thought, “What?
What type of pain I will suffer? I want to see death. From where can
it be seen?... I will not even come to a Jewish burial G-d forbid,
who will know from me? I don't have water, I don't have bread, I
don't have anything, what could be?...” They all went, they were
twenty men, they all went and left me, and I was unable to continue
going. So what can be done? I asked the owner of the donkey that he
he should give me the donkey to ride on it. So he said to me, “I
have wheat, I have (a load) on the donkey, I am not able, I am not
able....” So thieves came and took the donkey with the wheat! Yes.
I remained like that, so I saw that I'm in such a predicament, so I
said, “here there isn't anyone to hear, I will scream to the sky,
to the high heavens, I will scream with all my strength until I die.”
I screamed such screams to H”Y! I told Him, “You see my
situation? What can become of me? I want to do teshuva! I want to
live!” So I said, “Master of the World, You are Omnipotent, You
can help me. If You help me get out of here alive, then I sanctify my
entire life just for the devotion of Hashem!”
I
accepted upon myself a vow that can not be absolved. There is such a
vow, a vow based on the mind of the public. There such a vow that is
impossible to absolve. I accepted upon myself such a vow! “Master
of the World, I see that over here I am far from life, but if You
help me, I sanctify my entire life – just to the service of
Hashem...” Nu, Nu... I screamed with all my strength. In the forest
it goes out – the sounds can be heard from very far. So/then I
heard the sound of horses, that horses are going, going with irons...
(before the horses, you forgot, some arab told you from
a distance, “come to me.” There was some arab on the hill and
wanted to take from you money)
It is necessary to tell over everything? (Yes, tell
over everything!)
Yes, so I screamed with such callings! So then I heard the sounds of
horses that go with irons. So/then I said, perhaps this is the
salvation? And so it was, this was salvation! Two horses with their
riders came and they saw me, that I, from the tears of my eyes had
made my clothes damp, for such a long time I had went, and they had
mercy on my plight. I said, “What can I ask from them? That they
should descend and I will go on the horses?...” So/then they said
to me, “What can we do for you?” I told them that they should go
and notify the village that I am alive. They said, that they will go
to the village, and there they will reveal that I am deserting the
army, and they (will) search for me, it is necessary to bring me to
the village. Yes! So they went! I didn't see them. Nu? They took a
hold of me, they didn't want to leave me. But the officers? They...
we didn't see them, they went....
I
saw the horses, they said to me, they rode on the horses, and they
said to me that I should follow them. I said, “What? Horses!” I
went on all four, I didn't go on two – (but) on the hands and feet!
Nu? I can go after horses? What is this? So they sat on the horses,
and that's what they told me, that I should go with them. Nu, I went
on all four and they sat on the horses, I saw the horses, and I went
after the horses. Afterwards I ceased to see the horses, but I had a
path, so I went with this path until I came to a place of the
shepherds of the animals, goats. Who can tell over all of this?...
(It was lucky that they gave you to drink shamenet)
Yes,
Yes! I... I came, so I requested that they give me water to drink.
They brought me a wooden box, a box so big with lebben, shammennet (-
a type of slightly sour yogurt, a popular Israeli milk product), so
it was a miracle. If not for this I would have died, I would not have
needed neither to eat nor to drink. Yes! And an arab came with a
horse. This horse was full of bruises, the arab was poor, he did not
have a good horse, so I asked him that I could ride. He said to me,
“What will you give me?” I said to him, “You will come to
Tzemach (- a village close to Tiberius), there I have a wealthy
family, they will give you a lot of money if you take me.” So he
took me. Afterwards he had remorse, oy, he wants money! Now perhaps
they will not give him? Maybe only I want?... In any event, they...
they took me to Tiberius by way of Lake Kinneret (-Sea of Galilee). I
came home and there, in Tiberius there was (news) there, that those
that went by foot told over that bandits came and took from them all
their possessions. So they said, because they had left me, so they
received a punishment from Heaven. They told my family that I had
remained, they don't know where. I came and I had wounds on my
feet... I went in the mire on the stones, until the feet were full of
blood, and the stones took off the skin of the feet and hands. The
doctors examined me, the feet, and they said to me, “It is
forbidden, (immersion in a) mikva
is forbidden! It is forbidden to go to the mikva! If you will go to
the mikva you will die!” I didn't listen! I am going to be without
a mikva? So I went to the mikva, and the odor was like a carcass,
yes, of the feet. H”Y helped me. I suffered, and suffered, and
suffered, until the malady passed, until I remained alive.
My
situation? Where I am to be found? A person, a sick person? Can not
go without water, without bread? Without anything. So what? What will
come out of this? And also my life? What type of life is this? This,
this? This is life, this? But I made such screams, to high heavens...
yes. I said, here there is no one for me to be embarrassed from, here
I can scream as much as want. Yes. So? So I screamed, to... to high
heavens! I had already dispaired, but I said, “Master of the World,
You are Omnipotent, if you take me out of here alive, from here, then
I will sanctify my whole life just for the devotion of Hashem.” And
I did not merit to fulfill the vow, I did not merit. There was a
famine, there... there was parnassa? A very strong test, not like
today, yes. But the Rav Werner, the Rav Moshe Werner, i was with him,
he saw how I suffered, and he absolved for me, with other rabbis, the
vow. Yes. I told him, so he said to me, “It is possible to
absolve!”
Story
of the Dog
R'
Yisroel is in the synagogue together with a rabid dog.
H”Y
should have mercy on me, what I went through!... Oy, there was such,
and such, and such, and such, and more, and more, but just this
alone?! H”Y took me out from this place, from a place of death,
from such a place! There was no one to attend to me, to help me, yes,
I was saved. H”Y saved me, yes. This is impossible to fathom in
one's mind, I can not tell everything, that's what was.
And
the Yeshiva?... I had a beautiful handwriting and they needed to send
letters for parnassa, that they (the recipients) should
support the yeshiva. So they asked me to write. Nu? To write! But at
night I sat in the synagogue, and I sat in great anguish. I had
already given over my life to H”Y, and I go out to write to earn
money? To earn parnassa? I sat and wrote. Suddenly, in middle
of writing, a rabid dog, with rabies, that water was dripping from
its mouth, and the eyes were very scary, and it was running, running
inside the synagogue, entering and leaving, entering and leaving, it
was mamash frightening. So after this? I sit and see such a thing! I
see that this rabid dog, it has rabies, yes. What can be done? So,
there was next to me, next to me there was a closet of books, I took
out the books and went inside the closet, and it was very small, and
it was, in any event, I went into the closet and the dog came to the
closet and it fought with me, it wanted to open, and I grasped so
that it should not be able to open, that it should not know to open,
yes.
I
saw more wondrous matters. I was here, and the dog was here, so it
wanted to bite, and here was the tomb of Rabbi Meir Baal Hanais
(-miracle maker). The dog came from here, it came by way of the
doorway and it wanted to come to me and bite me, and I saw that it
was like it was being prevented, that the dog was not let to come
close to me! Yes, that's how it was! Afterwards it wanted to come,
and it was like someone wasn't allowing it. My feeling, that I had
[the reason that this happened to me], this happened to me because I
mad a vow not to work and I do not abide, and I was writing, yes,
yes, yes. For money I write?! The dog stood there next to me! And it
looked at me and I looked at it, but it was unable to come to me.
Suddenly it was running. It started to run outside, and it left the
synagogue. But I was scared lest it come. I was able to close the
doors, Hashem saved me from the dog! Also, this was also, the same
thing as the dessert that I remained like that.... I was together in
the synagogue with a rabid dog and it was able... it was able to
bite.
(what happened to the dog?)
I screamed to the friends above, “Open the door, so that I can get
there!” To be in a safe place! When I arrive to a save place, to a
higher floor, to the rooms, where we slept, then it will no longer be
able to fight with me! So they opened the door, it was an iron door,
so they opened it and I ran quickly, so that it would not have the
chance to bite me, and I managed overtake the dog! And the friends
afterwards opened up, slightly, the door, so that it could insert
just its head. So it put just its head , it didn't have a choice, and
they closed the door on the head, and 'shoin' (yiddish – end of the
story) it was over, the dog died! The dog died! There is no dog! So I
said, I will (already) not continue writing letters, for (-to bring
on) a rabid dog. If I write, then a rabid dog will come, and I don't
want it to come, so I will not write any more!!”
News
in the World
A
wagon without horses, the first in the country...
(How was it with the first car that came to Tiberius)
They said, “There came from England such a bus, that runs with such
speed! On the mountains and hills.” So the whole city came to see
this wonder, so they saw that he came down the steps from the hotel,
he came in – the owner of the vehicle, and he started to arouse it
to go – the waggon without horses, the vehicle. So they heard that
it started to go?! So we all said, every one said, “maybe it will
run over him? It will run him over, it goes everywhere? It will run
him over!” There was panic. It doesn't have eyes, what will be?
There was such a stampede! Everyone ran so that it shouldn't run over
him! I was also in the city, in the crowd that came to see the wonder
of the vehicle. For just as it began to sing, so they said, “now
it, it is already going, it is already beginning to go, it is going!
What should we do? It is going? It will kill us, there was a stamped,
there was such a stampede! Such a great stampede!
The
first telephone in Tiberius:
Also
I saw the first time a fool, a crazy Englishman! I went to Yeshiva
and below, on the way up to the tomb of Rabbi Meir Baal Hanais there
was a restaurant of the hot springs of Tiberius, and there was the
office of the English, when they came and conquered Tiberius, there
office was there. So I was going to Yeshiva and I see the office of a
crazy Englishman, he holds some sort of piece of iron near his ear,
and he speaks? He laughs? What is this? He's crazy? With whom is he
speaking? He is speaking, he is laughing like a small child! I said,
“He is that crazy? That there is nothing like it!” I had heard
that there was the telegraph, but I didn't know that there was the
telephone?! So he held the iron, he speaks to it and laughs, and
laughs. What? This is crazy this? With whom is he speaking? There is
no one!
The
first refrigerator that makes ice:
Once
a relative came from Paris. There were Turks, by us there were the
Turkish. So the whole family (-the relative) she tells over to my
mother, “by us in Paris there is a refrigerator that makes ice, and
it isn't necessary to buy.” I know? I went to buy ice in the big
factory, there were many workers, how is it possible? I asked her,
“The ice factory is large with workers, so how is possible for a
small refrigerator to make ice?” So she said to me, “don't be
amazed, in my house there is such a refrigerator, I have such a
refrigerator.” I did not want to believe. (If they
told you 70 years ago that there would be a country with tanks and
planes, you would have said that they are crazy?)
If they told me 70 years ago that Breslov would subsist? After 70
years? So I would have said, “They are crazy! They don't know what
they are talking about! How could such a thing be?!” There was fear
of touching a book of Breslov. To touch the table on which a Breslov
book rested, they were afraid of touching the table. There were those
were very stringent, that they would not, not only did they not want
to touch the book, but even the table on which the book rested, he
was very stringent. Nu? And Now? The books of Breslov are bought
everywhere, they are bought today, they are bought, thank G-d. I
said, “Good, this is the whole redemption. But how can the
redemption come? They don't want to touch a book of Breslov? What
will be? What will be?” So now I live, and I see that they are all
embarrassed. Breslov, the more time transpires, it is more important,
and the more it goes and grows and becomes greater, there is
publication and sales.
Clock
for Midnight.
(Saba what about the clock?)
I did not feel well, I was not able to get up for midnight, what will
become of me? So I passed through in Tiberius, I went through the
market. There was a clock there, so I heard, that there was a clock
that arouses well. So then this is good for me! But I don't have
money. I came in like a madman without money. Who comes into a store
without money? But I said, first of all I will come in to see the
clock, first of all I entered to see the clock, I need it. So I
entered and I was flabbergasted. Such a clock that arouses every five
seconds (-minutes)? I never saw such a clock! With such sounds it
screams! So I said, “I need this clock. I need this clock!” So I
said to the storekeeper, “I need this clock, money I don't have
right now, but I will pay you... right now I don't have money. I will
pay you.” He believed me, he understood that I will not steal the
clock from him. “Ok good, take the clock.” (You payed him?) No!
On credit, on credit. Afterwards I came home with great happiness, I
have such a clock that will awaken me at midnight, and it came
midnight and the clock was calling. And I, the more that it provoked,
the more I wanted to sleep. The sleep was so sweet. It is impossible
to describe. So I didn't get up. I said, “Such a fiend? You have
such a clock? And you don't get up for midnight? What will be with
you?” So I said, “No! The clock is not sufficient! I will buy to
container of kerosine and I will stand the clock on the containers,
then there will be such noise that the whole city will rock, and will
get up for midnight.” So I bought two containers, I put the clock
on the containers, and it, the more that it aroused me, the more I
wanted to sleep. I remained in bed, to sleep. I don't feel almost
anything. It was so sweet the sleep. This is a Breslover? This is
Breslov without midnight? What ta'am
(taste, reason) does Breslov have without midnight?
Story
of the Pettek (note)
By
you it is holiest of holy:
(you wrote already the story of the 17th of Tamuz... by
you it is holiest of holy, and by the world this is a story, it is
words that aren't accepted... what, on the 17th of Tamuz
this petek was made?)
It is embarrassing to tell over something like this. I, my daughter
Miriam was born in the year (5)688 (1928)... nu, what I didn't
hear... she was born in the year (5)688, I found the petek in the
year (5)682 (1922)... 682 so this is 6 years prior to her birth. Six
years before my daughter Miriam was born. Zoy, vay vay vay... when I
see where, how I am to be found, in what state I am in... and also my
children, I am already confused, and I don't know what's with me...
yes, what is this? What is this? I had... I merited to see Rabbi
Yisroel Karduner and the elders of our people, not simple, not
simple, I had self sacrifice for every word for every time... I lived
in Tiberius and I didn't have a livelihood, and I traveled to
Jerusalem in order to hear any words from Rabbainu... nu, on the
Petek? In the year (5)682 (1922) close to the fast of the 17th
of Tamuz I felt weak, not so much, but not G-d forbid, serious, I
felt, the 17th
of Tamuz arrived, I felt weak, so the opponent (evil inclination)
strengthened against me, intensified against me on the 17th
of Tamuz. “You are very weak, you need to eat now, before the...”
I am embarrassed to say, before the prayers I didn't drink water from
midnight until after the (morning) prayers. I didn't eat and I didn't
drink, and now the opponent (evil inclination) came to me, and said
to me, “you need to eat before the prayer, you are so weak, you are
so weak.” I listened to him, I didn't want to, but I ate.... nu, I
ate as someone who eats G-d forbid poisonous substances. I ate, but
it was... but it was without hands and feet (heart and soul), nu, but
I ate. After eating I made the blessing, grace after the meal, and I
went to the mikva and to pray after the meal. Nu, it is possible to
understand how the prayer was and how... what state I was in after
something like this. After I had been prudent, I had been with Rabbi
Yisroel, every fast, even the fast of Av and whoever was born in that
week would fast (?) and also I was with Rabbi Yisroel, I also did
that... it was specifically on the day of the 17th
of Tamuz which is a severe fastday, of the 4 fastdays, nu, I failed,
I failed, I fell in such a way, to eat before the prayers! Then there
isn't... so I didn't want to live, and I fell into such depression
that I couldn't speak and be seen with people. I went to the yeshiva
and I lay in the synagogue in the yeshiva, there was a yeshiva and
also a synagogue, I lay in the synagogue like a dead person, not
speaking not eating, like a dead person... and the students of the
yeshiva, this synagogue, the students of the yeshiva, whoever entered
the synagogue and saw Yisroel Ber lying in such depression that (it)
was frightening. And they were accustomed – that I was always happy
and dancing, happy, and they, it was difficult for them, “How is
Yisroel Ber happy, from what is he happy, he doesn't have a
livelihood, and he doesn't have bread for the children, and travels
every... in any event this Yisroel Ber is not the Yisroel Ber that
was, this is Yisroel Ber mad! And that's the end of all the
Breslovers, in the very end he becomes crazy, because they go at
midnight to the fields, to the forests, and sometimes they are
frightened from a dog, from any wild animal, from a gentile, so they
become crazy. At the very end they become crazy.” And I was in a
terrible depression, and this that they were speaking like that, so I
was depressed endlessly more, because I sensed that I was causing for
all that they were saying, I am the cause. What is this!? Such
depression?! Even if someone transgressed the whole Torah, such
depression?! In any event I had great pain, and I was under great
duress, and I didn't want to live. In any event, from the utter
depression I saw that I was causing a profanation of Hashem, a
disgrace to Breslov. So I had hisbodidus and I prayed to the blessed
G-d, “Master of the World, see the state that I'm in, true I ate, I
did what I did, but I want to repent, heal me, and take me out of
this predicament, from this depression, because I am causing a
profanation of Hashem... this is a profanation of Hashem, of
Breslov...” So I cried before the blessed G-d in the synagogue, and
I said, “Master of the World heal me, that I can get out of the
depression!”
A
very strong thought entered me, as if someone entered my mind, in my
head, in my mind, and said to me, the thought, telling me, “go into
your room!” The room, I was in the synagogue, and my room was was
next to the synagogue, “go into your room and open the bookcase and
put your hand on any book and take it out and open it, and there you
will find a cure for your soul.” I wanted to be healed, nu, and I
prayed, I said (in thought), “this thought... what is it? My
thoughts are serious matter?” So I said, “What... I will do it, I
will do it and we'll see what will be made of it.” So I did this,
from the synagogue I went and entered my room, and I opened the
closet and I put... like they told me, and I put my hand on a book,
took it out and opened it, and there was this Petek... I saw just a
piece of paper, I didn't know... found... in the book, it could be a
book mark to know where I am learning. I didn't pay attention to it.
I saw a piece of paper. In any event afterwards I started, I saw that
there were written lines, I started to read and I saw what was
written “my precious student”... yes, and “I had great
pleasure”, “I had great pleasure from your devotions”, “and a
sign” after the whole Petek, the signature Na Nach, “and a sign
the 17th of Tamuz they will say that you don't fast”,
17th of Tamuz, on the 17th of Tamuz they will
say, this infers that the Petek was written even before the 17th
of Tamuz, he tells me a sign, “17th of Tamuz they will
say that you don't fast...” In any event I read this... and in the
same extent that I had previously been utterly depressed, I received
happiness from this Petek, such happiness that was not from this
world, to the extent that the depression had no value in the face of
the happiness. Such happiness that... I started to dance in my room,
and the yeshiva, they learned in the yeshiva and they said that he –
the crazy one – has become happy... he has become happy, but he is
dancing. So all of them came into my room and they saw the... such a
thing, that I am dancing... I am not asking them, I am dancing and so
happy... they were negated... they took me out of the room like...
yes, and they stood in a circle and I was in the center, and I danced
several hours into the night... and they became tired. They stood a
long time like this... so they said, “he will not tire, he will
tire us out, we don't have any more strength!” So they went, and I
danced alone. In any event, this is something that is impossible to
describe, to tell over the matter of depression that I had and the
happiness... and such happiness!... and I didn't have a cure, in
contradistinction to the depression I came into such happiness, and I
had a cure for my whole life. Every time that I underwent a
difficulty, issues that people transpire, falling or downs, then
immediately I took the Petek and read, then already there was a
healing....
The
stories of the Petek, the stories of the Petek is such encouragement
that never was, in Likutay Moharan it is full of encouragement, all
the lessons are... all the lessons have an issue... they are just
encouragement, just encouragement..., not to despair and not... yes,
and to begin every second anew and... nu, I know from this, and I
learn this, I practiced this... and suddenly I was cut off from all
of this strength by the fall. By, by the eating of the 17th
of Tamuz... and no words of Rabbainu helped me, and I fell into such
darkness that I had no cure... “on you... on you I said”, the way
you are, “on you”, you ate you did such a thing, and you – the
way you are, “on you I said my fire will burn until the coming of
the Messiah.” Oy... I don't know how to give explanations... just
in simplicity, simply put this is also that, “on you I said” but
if G-d forbid there won't be all the words of Rabbainu, we see that
they are enduring, and enduring forever... and also this adage, but
even still it could be G-d forbid on account of a defect, on account
of a sin G-d forbid, it could be what will be... yes, and I will be
responsible, there will be a desecration of Hashem, it is written,
“on you I said my fire...” Where is he? At the time that I found
this and I read it, and this made me happy, but I didn't know what, I
saw that this is so wondrous, but more than that I didn't know what,
what, anything, any details, I read like a small child that doesn't
know anything, Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman, I didn't know more,
just what was written. After you have drawn close to me, and you
aroused me, this needs to be publicized, this was held in secrecy, no
one knew from it, I told you from this secret and you said it
needs... until now it was asleep, I did not give, I will not let you
sleep... enough... this needs to publicized throughout the whole
world, this matter, this wondrous matter... simply as it is, it is
written with the signature of Rabbainu, he wrote to me, “Na Nach
Nachma Nachman MeUman.” Ahh... yes, he gives me a sign, a sign the
17th of Tamuz, something that know one knew... so... so I
saw that this was addressed to me, but previously it is not written
Yisroel Ber Odesser, it isn't written, just “my student”, there
is no name written, it is not written who it is, and in reality this
is (so with) all the words of Rabbainu, they are generalizations. All
the teachings, and all the conversations, and all that transpires
over each and every person, is the matter of Rabbainu, he isn't (just
for) one person, (rather) for each and every Jew, for all of
Israel... yes. So this, this too is a general principle, “it was
very hard for me to come down to you,” not (just) to me, to you,
and to you, and to you... he writes to each and every one... yes...
yes. “to tell you that I greatly enjoyed your devotions, and on
you” the whole Petek, he speaks to each and every one... the matter
of Na Nach, this was revealed just in the Petek, this was a secret, a
secret from all the worlds, there is no revelation of such a thing in
the world, just in the Petek, the signature, he reveals to the whole
world that the song which is single, double, triple, quadruple, that
would merit to be revealed with the coming of the Messiah, that will
return the whole world to the Blessed G-d, to the Torah, it is the
Master of the Petek, it is our Holy Master, what he personally
signed, Na Nach Nachma Nachman. Single – Na, double – NaCh,
triple – NaChMu, quadruple – NaChMuN. This says that he reveals
to us that he is this song that is to be revealed in the future, he
is this song. Every teaching from Likutay Moharan, and every word
that he revealed in the world, so this song that through it will
come.. will come, the world will be rectified.... What Y – H? Y –
H – V – H, the name of Hashem, Y – H – V – H shared with
the name of Rabbainu, that's what he wrote in the teachings (Likutay
Moharan Vol. 2, Torah 67), that's what he reveals, the name of Hashem
is shared with the name of the tzadik... if the name of the tzadik is
publicized in the world, the blessed G-d is publicized in the world,
the faith, the Torah... yes, this is dependent on the publicizing of
the name of the tzadik. And here he signed that he is the tzadik of
the single double triple quadruple song, he... he, also in actuality
there isn't... in the whole Petek it isn't written to whom he is
writing this, and it is possible to think... yes, but just at the end
he reveals a sign, “a sign the 17th of Tamuz”,
something that just I knew... and all... and not a single person knew
from this, so this sign I know that it is, that I was the cause of
this... on account of my depression, on account of my broken heart
that I had from the transgression, so from this was made what... it
was made from this... this is hidden matters what is impossible... in
general... it is impossible, impossible... in any event, just in a
general way, “full and heaped up from extreme to extreme”, “full
and heaped up” this is also such a matter, “full and heaped
up”... “full” not just full, heaped up... yes, what more? But
there is more heaped up more “full and heaped up from extreme to
extreme”... yes, so from extreme to extreme this is a such an
esoteric matter, which is more than “full and heaped up”, and
also “full and heaped up from extreme to extreme” it is full...
it is full of many vowels, nu, I don't know. Our holy master writes,
“with the strengthening of devotions you will understand it”...
“P – Tz” this is the matter of Rabbainu's New Years, the Petek
cites that I have knowledge in the matter of the New Years, of the
New Years, more than the whole world, and, “full and heaped up from
extreme to extreme (PtzPTzYH)” this is the New Years... the angel
in charge of the sounds of the shofar, on the sounding of the
shofar... yes.
More
on the secret of the angel of the New Years:
Let
us go to Tzipora (Saba's daughter) she has good stuff, she has
several Peteks. One Petek I can recite by heart, 'it was very
difficult for me to come down to you my precious student, to tell you
that I had great enjoyment from your devotions, and on you I said my
fire will burn until the coming of Messiah, be strong and courageous
in your devotions, and a sign the 17th
of Tamuz they will say that you don't fast, and with this I will
reveal to you a secret full and heaped up from extreme to extreme
PtzPTzYH...' By Tzipora there is everything. We will make a hotel by
Tzipora. They have a big apartment, two rooms, mattresses everywhere,
she will be very happy. The main thing is that we have a car and
drivers, we have a car and we can sleep in the day and in the night.
We have a car and we have drivers, there will be benzine as well. Do
you know me? (yes) And do you know how old I am? 106... When there is
a book, how to start the book – PTzPTzYH, PtzPTzYH this is a
secret, the secret of the sounding of the shofar, it is forbidden to
denigrate this... All of them, the whole world is far from this.
What? He informed to where and where he was, how he had... It is
forbidden to belittle, I myself denigrate this, but this is matters
very terrible, this is a secret with this they are very distant from
this... The time will come, the time will arrive, that everyone will
see the truth... And it transforms the person completely to the
blessed G-d to the Torah. It is necessary also, to stop and prevail
over the evil inclination and over desires, certainly! (in
the night you said that you received three peteks)
Three peteks, I don't remember... (today in the morning
you said that the matter of the peteks is not a simple matter)
not to denigrate in any one of them... (what is it, not
to denigrate?) To
believe! Not to denigrate, to believe, enough, enough... the Holy
Blessed One, the peteks I didn't think about this... this was from
Hashem from Heaven (the Petek that you received, its
for the whole world)
it is impossible to speak, it is impossible for me to speak, it is
necessary to speak a lot and I am unable... (for us the
Petek is a sealed book, we still believe, but we don't understand)
certainly! (perhaps you can explain?)
our holy master revealed... who he is, he is Na Nach Nachma Nachman
MeUman, Nachman MeUman (the main thing about the Petek
is that Rabbainu revealed that he is Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman?)
yes, yes, yes! He is the Rebbe of all of Israel! He will rectify the
whole world, rectify everyone, but even still it is necessary to
guard, it is necessary to guard one's self, because there are words,
there are also distinctions, no, the world is not abandoned to do,
Heaven Forbid, one's desires, and afterwards expect honor and fame.
(Rabbainu said while he was still alive that he would rectify the
world)
yes, certainly! (but what is the novelty of the Petek
in this matter?)
this is great encouragement to each person, great encouragement, if
such a person merited to receive a Petek.... And Rabbainu, this is a
wonder that never ever was, that still never ever was, this is a
novelty great and awesome, as Rabbainu said, “a novelty like myself
still has never ever been in the world.” (Rabbi
Yisroel, the Petek is the beginning of the redemption?)
yes, (what is the sign?)
this... this is good tidings that the time of redemption is very
near, yes I know the truth, you do not know, but I know the truth,
that Heaven forbid I am not suspected of lying, what! What will I get
from this? Heaven forbid there is nothing to think about this... from
this... (Rabbi Yisroel, it is good for us to read the
words of the Petek, it is propitious?)
I don't have strength, I don't hear at all and don't know, you ask
but I don't know (I ask if it is good to read “it was
very difficult for me to come down to you my precious student to tell
you”?)
Yes,
I found this in a book, and that is it, but I didn't do it, and not
any one, this is authentic just like the Torah is authentic, like the
blessed G-d is authentic, like the Torah is authentic. Truth, just
truth without any falsehood. (It is propitious to read
the Petek?)
It
is necessary to recite in truth (what is the sign that
the Petek has, the 17th of Tamuz?)
'and a sign,' 'and a sign the 17th
of Tamuz,' there wasn't, not a soul knew of this, this was secret
from everyone, from all the worlds, for I knew that I didn't fast,
but everyone didn't know, just myself alone. (but this
sign has more implications other than this?)
yes, yes, and... the Petek is completely wondrous, wondrous, “my
precious student”, who could contemplate that I am the precious
student of our holy master? This is wondrous, wondrous, wondrous, a
wonder that is unfathomable. (but now you understand
what the Petek has “my precious student”, you said that now you
are able to accept it, in the beginning you didn't understand “my
precious student” how it was applicable to you)
yes, but now I grasp what it is, the explanation of this, I grasp and
understand the explanation of this, I wasn't able to reason to myself
and understand “my precious student”, but I am now very strong
with this, and thank G-d it is the truth, and thank G-d this is also
a wonder from our holy master, that I also can understand such
wondrous words as these and such awesome secrets as these, such light
as these, it is impossible to understand.
[Very hard it was for me to
descend to you/ my precious student to tell you that I enjoyed/ very
much from your devotion and upon you I said/ my fire will burn till/
Messiah will come be strong and courageous/ in your devotion/ Na Nach
Nachmu Nachmun MeUman/ and with this I will reveal to you a secret
and it is:/ full and heaped up from extreme to extreme (PtzPtzYH)/
and with the strengthening of devotion you will understand it and a
sign/ the 17th
of Tamuz they will say you don't fast.]
This
is the second, there are three, the first is by Tzipora (and
the second?)
by the (my) daughter, by Tzipora there is the first Petek, this is
very important, it is necessary to make like this all three, we have
a car and drivers and also benzine there will be, let us abound
(you'll have all the gas stations Rabbi Nachman's)
yes! We'll enter there by car, yes, there is the big car....
This
was a secret for 60 years:
So
60 years it was completely secret, no one knew just my children, I
told them the matter, yes, but... and also, there were a few
privileged individuals that were righteous holy, my friends, I told
them and they accepted it. This... how is it possible to accept it?
This is above, above nature! How? Nu, and they accepted this matter.
There was, I must tell over in short, abridged.... Sixty two years
ago there was the following story: I failed, failed and fell. This
was on the day of the 17th of Tamuz (-summer month), this
is a serious fastday, of the four fastdays, (that is) before tisha
bi'av (the fast of the 9th of Av), this is on the
destruction (of the temple). Now I was accustomed to fast all the
fasts, during (the month of) Av, on the days preceding the new month,
every type... yes, and also I did a fast every single day, from
midnight until after the (morning) prayer, I did not taste even
water, as was the custom of my holy teacher Rabbi Yisroel (Karduner),
yes. And on the 17th of Tamuz, which is a serious fastday,
I fell and failed. It seemed to me that I did not feel well, I must,
I must cancel the fast. In any event, however it was, I am
embarrassed to tell over everything, I, in any event, failed, a
descent, I went down a great descent and I ate in the morning on the
day of this fastday, and this was... hard on me, and I had great
pain, and I fell into such depression that (it) was scary! Whoever
looked at me, it was... there fell upon him sadness! From this that I
didn't fast. In any event, all of them were opposers, and they said
that this is the end of Breslov, eventually they become crazy, that I
had become crazy! I was always happy, suddenly the whole week,
Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday... In any event I had great pain,
and also, I couldn't serve Hashem, I was in darkness, in tremendous
pain, in such depression, mamash like going out of the mind, and all
of them rejoiced, they said, “This is the end of all the Breslov
hasidim!” So I prayed to Hashem to have mercy on me and take me out
of this, for I am causing a disgrace and profanation of Hashem – to
Breslov. Then it entered my mind, a very strong thought, as if
someone was standing and telling me these words, “Go into your
room,” and there I had a closet, “open the closet and take out
any book, any book, don't intend for any... put your hand on a book
and take it out and open it, open it to wherever you open, and there
you will find a healing for your soul.” Nu, so I had such a strong
thought, so I said, “What? What can I lose? I will enter the room
and I will do this.” Nu, I entered the room and opened the closet
and took out a book, I opened it and there was there... there is over
here, there is here, this is a photocopy, this is a photocopy of the
Petek (-note).... I opened the book and there was this piece of paper
in it. I didn't pay attention to the paper, the paper will be a
healing for me? What will I have from a paper? So I read from the
halacha (- exposition on a Torah injunction) where I had
opened to, perhaps I will find there such words that will help me? So
I read, and this invigorated me, but when I finished, the malady
returned like it had been. So then my spirit fell I thought that G-d
forbid that I don't have, I don't have a standing chance, any remedy.
So before I acted on my will to return the book to its place, before
I closed the book, I noticed that there was here, that there are
written lines, I began to read, I had just started to read and I saw
that this is a very wondrous deed, “It was hard for me to come down
to you my student.” Immediately – altogether I can not tell over,
even if I was able to speak, what I felt with this, and what there is
in this is impossible to reveal, impossible to relate, impossible to
speak. Anyways (lit. but good), I started to read, and I read it
entirely till the en, I read like.... Immediately after I finished
reading I entered such (a state of) happiness which is not of this
world, just from the future world, such joy, I started to dance and
clap with joyous melodies, and they, and the Yeshiva heard, they knew
that the whole week I was depressed, and now I, they hear that I am
so happy, dancing, yes, so they said, now he is completely fine, he's
already... he's crazy! They came into the room and took me out to the
courtyard, and they made a circle – the whole yeshiva, and I was in
the middle, and I danced. Everyone rejoiced, and they all mocked me,
“the fool – he dances!” The upshot, they stood for hours, they
said, “He doesn't tire, we, we can't stand.” They went, all of
them, I stayed and danced almost the whole night. Good. So I, from
this night on, received a reputation in the whole city of Tiberius. I
entered the city from the Yeshiva, so everyone said, they knew, that
this Breslov (affiliate) he has already gone mad. So that's it, this
is the Petek. Nu, I, I don't have any... I am telling it the way it
was. Also until... not everything, just... and this I know, and so
too many (?). I showed this in Jerusalem to great masters of the
Kaballa, in Jerusalem, yes, and they were astounded, they were so
excited from this. In any event I don't need to bring witnesses,
because this is a witness in of itself, just to see the signature of
Rabbainu, this (is) with vowels Na NaCh NaChMu NaChMuN Me'Uman, that
is it, this signature, our holy master in his lifetime he signed his
name on his letters, Nachman, Nachman, here is written; Na NaCh
NaChMu NaChMuN Me'Uman – with vowels, from Uman! The world, the
entire world know, Rabbi Nachman from Breslov, here is written: from
Uman, because... because he dwells in Uman. And also he reveals to me
this – I did not fast on the 17th of Tamuz, no one, no
one knew, yes, I will make a profanation of Hashem – that they
should say the hasidim of Breslov don't fast on the 17th
of Tamuz? I... this was a secret, yes. And also it is written here,
“a sign the 17th of Tamuz they will say that you don't
fast,” a sign that only I, only I and H”Y knew from this, this
sign. And also “of Tamuz” with vowels, a shva (two vertical dots
- i) and patach (a dash – a), tuv (the letter t' of Tamuz, with the
vowel -) patach: BiTamuz, just.... First of all this signature, this
is a new revelation in the world, because our holy master in Likutay
Moharan speaks out that there is a song that is single, double,
triple, quadruple, that will be revealed in the future by our
righteous Messiah, that will be revealed in the future, and here he
reveals that this song; single, double, triple, quadruple, he, he is
this song, yes, Na NaCh (Na Nach Rabbainu Nachman) Ah, ah, yes, with
vowels, and also, I am not able to speak from this entire matter,
what I see in this.
“Very...
very difficult it was for me to come down to you... to come down to
you.” One sees a descent, all the lines are straight, just this,
(is) also straight, but “to come down to you” it descends very
much. “It was difficult for me to descend to you,” if by
Rabbainu, Rabbi Nachman, it was difficult to come down to me, to come
down to you, this is a descent G-d forbid, very terrible! Yes, nu,
and immediately he strengthens me, “my precious student,” my
precious student? My student by itself is not sufficient? “My
precious student.” And also it would have been possible without “my
precious student,” - 'to come down to you to tell you that I had
great enjoyment from your devotion,' yes, (but) no! “My precious
student!” He strengthens me, he raises me from below the depths of
the abyss he lifts me to the exalted lofty heights, “my precious
student to tell you that I enjoyed.” “That I had great enjoyment
from your devotion, and upon you I said,” “I had great enjoyment
from your devotion,” this is one thing, “and upon you I said,”
this is another thing, this is two things; “upon you I said,' what
did I say upon you? Our holy master said, during his lifetime, a
statement, “my fire will burn until the coming of the Messiah,”
that's what he said, that is what is written in the book The Life of
Our Master Rabbi Nachman (Chayay Moharan), and here he reveals this,
I said, that which I said, “my fire will burn till the coming of
the Messiah,” regarding you I said this! This I said about you!
That through you there will shine the light until the coming of the
Messiah, upon you I said this, “and upon you I said my fire will
burn until the coming of the Messiah.” <the following is
Yiddish, as this line in the Petek is in Yiddish> “my fire will
burn until the Messiah is” do you know Yiddish as well? (yes) “My
fire will burn till the Messiah is coming” <resumes in Hebrew>
Nu, “upon you I said,” two things, “I had great enjoyment from
your devotion,” and “upon you I said,” you can.... “Be strong
and courageous in your devotions,” and signed, this is already
signed, he reveals to me two things, “I had great enjoyment from
your devotion,” “and upon you I said,” he signed on this, this
ends this in the letter he let me know two things, “I had great
enjoyment from your devotion,” “and upon you I said, my fire will
burn till the coming of the Messiah, be strong and courageous in your
devotion.” I was... I fell in spirit completely, and he, “be
strong...” if so, “I had great enjoyment from your devotion and
upon you I said,” you can garner strength, “be strong and
courageous in your devotion.” Also the lines; one, two, three,
four, five, six – this is also a line (-on the Petek the sixth line
has just this one word – 'in your devotion'), even just one word is
a line. And our holy master... the signature is on the line, on the
seventh line, this is Shabbos, this is the tzadik, he is the aspect
of Shabbos. And also there is... afterwards, “and with this I will
reveal to you a secret which is,” good, “full and heaped from one
extreme to the other extreme PTzPTzYH” this is name of the angel of
the sounding of the shofar, this, just this word is in regular
handwriting that he wrote. This is letters of Rash”i (i.e. the
other words on the Petek), and this (i.e. the name of the angel –
PtzPTzYH) is regular letters that are used for writing (- Hebrew has
three main scripts, one used for handwriting, 'Rash”i' used by
certain holy commentaries, and 'Ashurit' calligraphy that is a
requirement for holy scrolls and in a basic form is also the standard
font for printing. Here Saba points out that the Petek employs the
Rashi script throughout, except for this one word which is in the
handwriting script), from them it is recognizable that this
handwriting is his handwriting because... this is Rash”i (script)
so it is not discernible, but this is his handwriting. Nu, I don't
understand this, the secret, “and with the strengthening of you
devotion you will understand it,” if I will be strong in the
service of Hashem, “you will understand it.”
And
now it says, he tells me the sign that only I knew from this, this
was a secret, no one knew from this, yes. And he reveals to me a
sign: “the 17th of Tamuz,” there was what was, oy, oy,
Master of the World, Master of the World.... In any event the main
matter that we have to reveal and publicize and have mesiras
nefesh (self-sacrifice) for this matter that the whole redemption
is dependent on our master Rabbi Nachman of Breslov, to study his
books, he, this is every letter, every Torah (-teaching), every word
of his is such light, that he speaks to you, speaks what you need,
all the issues you are going through, that you have underwent, that
you are going through, and so too on this (person), and so too on
this, and so too on every single one, and so too on me, every single
one. Every word that Rabbainu revealed is encompassing every single
one of Israel; what he is going through, and what he underwent, his
maladies, and his healing, not just his maladies! He fixes, purifies,
and heals all the sick, all the inferior of the world that have no
chance! They don't have... <one word here in Yiddish> no... no
tzadik can help them, but Rabbainu, Rabbi Nachman says, “And I heal
her.” This is at the end of the story of The Seven Beggars, do you
know from the stories “Sipurai Maasiyos” of Rabbainu? Yes? There
is at the end of the story of The Seven Beggars, at the end of this
story the sixth beggar says, the sixth beggar tells a story and says
that the princess (lit. queen's daughter) received all the bullets (-
arrows) with all the poisons, yes, and she fell faint, and I... so
said the beggar, “and I heal her...” This applies to the entire
nation of Israel, on every single one, “and I heal her.” She
already fell, she absorbed all the bullets and fell, “and I heal
her,” only I heal her, there is no one that can heal this, so our
holy master, so the beggar says, “and I heal her.” So our holy
master revealed of himself that he is this beggar, that he heals her,
“I heal her,” he said on himself, “I...” Yes, we are
fortunate (/in good standing), we already have all the
rectifications, and the healings, and the salvations that we need,
every single one, through Rabbainu, Rabbi Nachman. Only Rabbainu,
Rabbi Nachman he is the root of the Torah, he is the root of the
Faith, he is the root of everyone of Israel. However he is to be
found, in whatever place he came down, in whatever place that he is
to be found, he takes her out, he heals him [- it seems to me, the
translator that this is really referring to the princess who fell
into the water castle, so 'he' is referring to 'she', until “he
takes her out...” which is referring to Rabbainu, “he heals
-her”]. Yes, mamash it is impossible to heal, such a sick person,
this is such a sick person that he doesn't, that there is no cure for
this sickness, but Rabbainu, Rabbi Nachman he revealed that he, yes,
is capable of healing and fixing everything! Yes. There is in this
wondrous matters very esoteric, but it has not been revealed in the
world.... For I remember 70 years ago when I drew close to Rabbainu,
it was forbidden to learn the books of Breslov, it was forbidden to
learn the books of Breslov! I found a Breslov book and I didn't know
that it was Breslov, and I read from it, then they saw.... “What
are you doing? You learn from this book?” So this was the first
time that I heard that there is Breslov in the world. I didn't know
that there was Breslov in the world. So then I knew that there is....
“You don't know that this is from the books of Breslov? It is
forbidden to read from this!” Thank G-d today it is possible to
read in every synagogue, yes, everyone, who ever wants to learn...
this is signs of the redemption, signs that we are standing, that
we... according to our disposition, according to our actions, we are
already, by now there is no rectification for such sick people.
However, Rabbainu, Rabbi Nachman was already in the world, and he, he
can rectify all the illnesses and all... for there is not place that
he can't fix and heal, yes. So when we hear this, so/then we need to
have mesiras nefesh (self-sacrifice) to insert into our heart
his holy words, his teachings, and the prayers, and the halachos (-
exposition on a Torah injunction). There is a book, books, “Likutay
Halachos” (- Collection of Halachos, by Rabbi Nussun, employing
principles of Rabbi Nachman to explain the workings of the Torah Laws
in the order that they are presented in the Shulchan Aruch – Code
of Jewish Law), do you know from this? We need to be expert in the
book Likutay Moharan. Our holy master said that it is necessary to be
so proficient in this that one can recite it by heart forwards and
backwards, even backwards, so much proficiency is required, for this
is our entire vitality, every word, all our vitality, every word of
his, even one word. (and) Our holy master revealed that he is alluded
toin the verse, there is a verse in the Tanach (-scriptures. Proverbs
18:4) “Nachal (stream) Noavaya (flowing out) Mikur (source) Chuchma
(wisdom)” this has the first letters (spell out) NaChMaN, he is
alluded to in this verse, “A stream flowing out, source of wisdom,”
he flows, and gushes, and spews the source of wisdom, that there was
never such wisdom, that still hadn't been in the world. We have the
Torah and all the books of all the righteous, and this is the root of
the whole Torah, this surmounts everything! Through this we can come
close to the Torah, to know, to see the light of the Torah. In the
Torah there are many forces, there is the drug of life and the
antithesis, yes, and Rabbi Nachman facilitates that one will merit to
see the light of the Torah as is necessary. This bears very hidden
matters. However, now we see that the whole world, even the gentiles,
gentile scholars in the universities, are very awed by Rabbainu, R'
Nachman from Breslov, even gentiles! I spoke with a few people that
know about this, from London, from England, and they constantly talk
about Rav Nachman from Breslov, about his stories, about his words,
yes, and one sees that the whole world draw themselves to Rabbainu,
R' Nachman from Breslov! One sees. There were many tzadikim in the
world, the holy Baal Shem Tov and his students, and there were many
tzadikim, (they) don't speak from... (they are) just speaking always
about R' Nachman from Breslov, about the stories, about his words,
yes. One sees that the whole world draw themselves to Rabbainu, R'
Nachman from Breslov, one sees, there were many tzadikim in the
world, the holy Baal Shem Tov and his (the) students, and there were
many tzadikim, (they) don't speak about... there just remains for us,
as if there is a solitary one in the world, Rav Nachman of Breslov.
As it is so, we, the main thing to derive from this, that we need to
give ourselves with mesiras nefesh (self-sacrifice) to be
expert in his holy words, then we will merit. But with faith. It is
possible to learn and to be blind, not see anything. If for the sake
of haughtiness, 'I am Breslov,' to be expert in Likutay Moharan
just for the sake of haughtiness?! The main thing is to learn in
order that we should know how to fight, battle strategy, how to fight
and be triumphant in quashing the evil, yes, nu, the Blessed G-d
should have mercy on us, for we need great compassion, and this we...
Myself
and my friends, we saw many miracles from this holy name Na Nach
Nachma Nachman MeUman. In America there was a story like this: A
secular Jew he heard some talk, he was in a place with them together
and he heard that we... recently we made kamayas with with
holy name, Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman, and this is conducive
(segula) for a person to have all the salvation that he needs, this
is protection like a kamaya, he heard this, and he heard that
at a time of hardship, when a person is suffering any hardship, that
he should say verbally, aside from (having with him) the kamaya,
that he should say verbally, Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman, nu, it'
settled <yiddish – shoin>, he heard this, and he is secular,
he doesn't know anything, he doesn't know at all what faith is. He
went with one other in a taxi, and that day was so cold, in America,
and such snow, and his car broke down, it needs service, yes, medical
service, it is impossible... and the cold was so severe one could
literally die from the cold.... He was in a forsaken place where
barely any cars pass by there, and this was in middle of the night,
and bit longer he will freeze with his whole family. Then he
remembered that there is this segula, Na Nach Nachma Nachman
MeUman, so precisely then a car passed by and saved them, that's what
he came and attested afterwards to his friends.
There
was a story with a girl, a baby one and a half years old, there fell
upon her an urn of water which was boiling on the fire, it fell upon
her, on her face. So they took her to the Billinson Hospital, and the
doctors they came, they had great anguish how she (she) is in great
danger, even if she comes out of the danger what type of face will
she have, it is not worthwhile, so her parents, they saw the
misfortune, so they didn't know anything (to do). They had some type
of relative that had the kamaya. She went to visit her, she
put her kamaya on the patient, yes, on the baby, two days
transpired and the burn left as if she was born now anew! She has a
father and mother, everyone knows the family, and the doctors as
well. The doctor who attended her, so he was stupefied. He said to
them, “What did you do? What happened?” They told him, this is a
kamaya, they put the kamaya on her. He took the kamaya
and until this very day he does not want to return the kamaya....
Finding
the book “Outpouring of the Soul”
Finding
the Petek, everything with more details....
(My engagement is on Tuesday)
I want to celebrate the engagement and afterwards the wedding! Thank
G-d, do not procrastinate the wedding. She works? (she
will begin to work)
She still doesn't work anywhere? She should not work! Never, it is
not good for the woman to work in other places, (no,
perhaps she will be a teacher)
a teacher is good... not, not in all the houses (?). Do not forget,
always thank and extol Hashem on this great miracle and this great
kindness that we have no comprehension, this is kindness, this is a
treasury, a treasury of all the treasuries! Master of the World,
Master of the World, oy, oy, oy, and afterwards I, with the help of
the Blessed G-d, I desire that I merit to be by the circumcision and
by the wedding. I have thank G-d, I have time, I have a blessing
from... I have a blessing from our holy master, I have a blessing
from our holy master that I will live long, just, I, who knows, G-d
forbid perhaps sin will cause (this to be annulled), but I have a
blessing, and not a word from his words is [lost], everything that he
said we see. I drew close to our holy master approximately
70 years ago, and I managed to endure from this what I suffered. Do
you know that there was great opposition? And I, the place where I
was situated in Tiberius (and) in Safed there was the root of the
opposers, there were greats, hasidim, and that they, they were all
opposing me and called me faithless, I.... But what I suffered is
impossible to relate, and impossible to explain, so I suffered
greatly, and there wasn't... But I, now I see the great, the great
value of the suffering and the pain that is borne on account of a
holy matter. Afterwards one sees. (The engagement will
be joyous)
her brothers... maybe you will merit to apprise them of our holy
master, this surmounts everything.
(the family of her parents, they are each and everyone a tzadik,
tzadikim)
this was in merit that you merited to draw close to our holy master,
this is... this gives us all types of remedies, all types of
salvations, this that you merited to draw close to our holy master in
truth and in faith, this factor will bring upon you all the blessings
of the world, all the good bounties, all the salvations. I know, I
see now....
Rabbainu
in the Land of Israel:
He
traveled (Rabbi Nachman) to the Land of Israel during a time of war,
and there it was a great adventure what he went through, how much...
did you see (- in the book Shivchay HuRan – the praises of our
master Rabbi Nachman)? And thank G-d he came to the Land of Israel
safely and returned in a miraculous and wondrous way, which is
impossible to comprehend! And when he came from the Land of Israel
there was the Rav the tzadik the maggid in the city of
Terevitza, he was singular, he was an old man whereas our holy master
was like a child of twenty and some years old, and he (the maggid)
had encountered the Baal Shem Tov, the Maggid of Terevitza, he was a
gaon and a very big tzadik, and he was a pupil of the Baal Shem Tov,
and he was singular amongst the true tzadikim, he was unique in that
which he abnegated himself to our holy master and said to him that
you are [my] Rebbe, and when he (Rabbainu) came from the Land of
Israel, our holy master was in a village not far from him, from the
Maggid of Terrevitza, he traveled that way, and the village where
Rabbainu was, was not far from Terrivitza, and he (the maggid) was
informed that our holy master came, bless G-d, from the Land of
Israel and he is located in the village, and then he (the maggid) was
not prepared, dressed, was not prepared for the trip, he had to get
dressed. So he immediately began to run, and he left word that they
should follow him with a wagon, and he ran with all his strength,
with such speed that he arrived before the waggon. But, the wagon
went out after him immediately, and he came to our holy master before
the waggon arrived. Such mesiras nefesh, and he was singular
amongst the great tzadikim in that he recognized to a small degree
the greatness of our holy master. He was an elderly man, he said to
Rabbainu, “You (-in the respectful plural) are my Rebbe!” This
was in truth, not just capricious chatter from the mouth, the maggid,
he was an old man, 80 years old and he ran like a child, he ran to
see our holy master when he came from the Land of Israel. Rabbainu
was approximately twenty eight years, twenty six years seven years
old when he came from the Land of Israel. Once, this is written in
Chayay Moharan, come. The maggid had, he was a gaon,
and he, there is an approbation from him on the Shulchan Aruch
of the author of the Tanya, on the Shulchan Aruch, on a certain book
of his, on his books, nu, it can be ascertained from this that he was
not a simple person. He had a certain issue, a very deep matter. It
troubled him greatly and he was by many great holy tzadikim and asked
them about it, and they gave him some sort of answer, but he was not
satisfied, and he started to consider asking Rabbainu. So he came to
Rabbainu, and our holy master told him a Torah on this that was
troubling him. When he heard this Torah from the mouth of Rabbainu he
saw that it isn't human intelligence, it is very awesome! He was
thunderstruck, he thought that such a Torah is impossible to capture
on paper! Afterwards Rabbi Nussun came and wrote this Torah, so then
he said to our holy master, “You (-respectful plural) are a very
awesome novelty!” That's what the Maggid of Terivitza said to our
holy master, “This is a very awesome wonder!” So then Rabbainu
said to him, he said to him – the Maggid of Terivitza (said) that,
“You are a very awesome, greatly awesome wonder.” Then Rabbainu
said to him, “A novelty!” He said to him – the Maggid of
Terivitza (said), “a wonder, such a novelty very awesome!” Then
Rabbainu said to him, “a novelty like me has yet to be in the
world!” Yes. And when he came from the Land of Israel, Rabbainu
said on Shabbos, at the third meal at mincha, after mincha
at the third meal, he said this Torah, this Torah, “When you go
through water I am with you (Isiah 43 – Likutay Moharan 73), when
you go through water I am with you.” After the journey from the
Land of Israel, after, on Shabbos, from the journey to the Land of
Israel, it was on Shabbos, he said Torah on Shabbos night (- Friday
night), and also at the third meal, he also said Torah, this is the
Torah of the third meal.... [a boy reads the Torah. “Yes, He
desires kindness is Ani (- I), and Ani will bless them,
Ani, this is the blessing of... all the blessing and bounty is
through the vessel Ani, and Ani will bless them, Aleph (- the first
letter of 'Ani' – I, stands for) Alufainu (our outstanding leader),
(the second letter of Ani – I, nun:) 'Yinun is his name (Psalms
72)' Rashi explains (that) Yinun is Malchus (-sovereignty, which in
Kabbala is the attribute of speech), Yinun is (the Hebrew letter)
Nun, so we have already Aleph and Nun (- of the three letters that
spell Ani – I), afterwards another (letter) Yud, depicting the
thought (-every person sees himself as a tzadik - aleph, and prays,
attaching his thoughts – yud - to the words of prayer – nun),
Ani, regarding a woman, 'the fire (- Eeshay, the same spelling as
Eesha – woman) offering pleasant fragrance to Hashem' this is a
pleasant fragrance... a male... the external, this is a garment, but
Torah, Ani – when one merits to bind the thought to the speech,
every word that goes forth from the prayer must be with full
concentration, not to think of anything even in whimsical passing,
just with the thought attached to the words, what he releases from
his mouth...”] it is necessary to deduce from this a lesson, that
everything is from the blessed G-d. Just faith. We believe, but the
faith is faith in the truth, it is truth if there is belief. But in
falsehood it is not called faith, yes, thank G-d we merited to know
from our holy master who instills in us such faith which is new, such
faith that... just we need to accept, thak G-d. And I also see by me
many wondrous things.
For
example this Aaron he is a baal
teshuva,
do you know about this? And he... I can not bear it, he holds of me
to be an important personage, but I know the truth, I will explain to
him, you have to be careful here. Breslov is truth, if you believe in
me that I... this is the opposite. I am absolutely simple, just I, I
merited with the grace of G-d to recognize a Breslov Chasid, what
this is! If I hadn't recognized this man, my teacher Rabbi Yisroel
r.i.p.,
Rabbi Yisroel Karduner, Kardun, he was from the city, there is (a
city) Kardun in Galitzia, in Russia, he was called Karduner. R'
Yisroel Karduner. But he, his family name (was) Halpern, his family
name, and he also had great pain and great suffering from his drawing
close to Rabbainu, because then the whole world were opposers, do you
know from this? (Yes)
But what do you know? You know, but what I know you do not know! What
I saw! What I saw, what our holy master Rabbi Nachman could make from
a person the offspring of a woman! Such a holy person! This is
supernatural! What I saw by him, just to hear his voice! His voice
was pleasant and always
bound
to the blessed G-d especially in Torah... and prayer, I never saw nor
heard such a thing, because of this I drew close. By me there was...
and the blessed G-d brought about causes, all of them miracles,
miracles! I was, from the time I came to have sense, at the time when
I was little, six – seven years old, I loved very much the Torah
with Fear of Heaven with faith. But I had great bitterness, I
suffered very much from the evil inclination, there is the evil
inclination and it wants only this world (-worldliness). Just all of
this world, and all the desires and all... and I had fear of Heaven
and I loved the Torah very much. When I saw a person that was
knowledgeable and (yet) he speaks idle talk and batter, and doesn't
guard the time, so I said, “What is this? He is crazy! If I had
reading comprehension then I would, I would not rest, I would not be
idle for one second!” Yes. I heard of all types of chasidus, but
just about the name Breslov I never heard, that there is in world the
name Breslov, a type of chasidus whose name is Breslov I didn't hear,
but the blessed G-d He knows the heart, he knows the thought which is
in the heart (He knows the hidden of all life)
yes, ah, ah, yes, yes (He examines the kidneys and
heart, and there is nothing hidden from before Your eyes)
yes, so He saw that I abandon myself and disgrace myself before
people. I, when I saw someone elderly with fear of Heaven, so I would
relate to him my whole heart in order that he take me out from the
darkness and from the desires, the blessed G-d saw my heart and He
wanted to do with me kindness, to draw close to Rabbainu, but how –
I don't know(!) even that there is Breslov in the world, how will I
come close to Rabbainu? So the blessed G-d brought about an
induction, that I was in the courtyard of the Yeshiva, I, after... I
learned in the Yeshiva in Tiberius on the tomb of Rabbi Meir Baal
Hanais (miracle worker), do you know? Yes, this stands between the
fields, between the mountains, yes, and I liked to go out to stroll
in the mountains, in the fields, even before I drew close to
Rabbainu. And when I turned 17 years old I had fierce battles with
the evil inclination. What is there to do? I still did not from
Rabbainu, I still did not know. So the blessed G-d brought about that
I went out from the Yeshiva to the courtyard to get a cup of tea, and
in the courtyard stood a garbage can, and I saw a can, a garbage can,
and I saw there shaimos,
a book like that – without binding, without a beginning and without
an end, shaimos, nu, I was Heaven fearing and this was a disgrace, in
great disgrace, it is in the garbage can! So I took them in order to
throw it in the geniza,
there was a geniza – old books that were, that tore, so they were
like that, they are placed in the geniza, it was in the geniza in the
shaimos, yeah, nu let's put this also in the geniza (just
so that it won't be in the garbage can)
yes, yes. So I went with the book to throw it in the geniza, and
before I threw it, before I threw it, it was like that – shaimos,
what is the shaimos? Before I threw it, so I saw that the name of the
book is, 'Outpouring of the Soul.' I was used to reading from many
books, from books of mussar,
from books of chasidus, and so forth, and I never saw such a book
with the name 'Outpouring of the Soul.' I thought to myself,
“perhaps, perhaps this is good for me? Maybe this is Divine
Providence from the blessed G-d that I should have this book?” Yes,
so I started to read... I started to read, I read one page and I saw
that this was for me! That this is good for me! Such a goodness of...
it was... immediately I saw that this was for me very good, that this
is good for me, that I will succeed to vanquish all the battles,
everything that I suffered! So I didn't throw the book into the
geniza, rather I took it, and I stole myself away from the Yeshiva to
the field, between the mountains, with the book, and I began to read
from the book, and because I wanted to save myself from the evil
inclination, and I searched and searched, yes, I had, I had benefits
and salvations, but salvation like this that was... to vanquish all
the battles at once, this I never ever had! I read from the book one
page, two pages, and immediately I fulfilled what was written there,
and I saw such wonders the likes of which I never saw my whole
life... I was searching in the books and I was seeing salvations, but
such a thing that I had, such a wonder from came out of the words of
this book I never ever had. But I did not know from whom this was.
This was shaimos,
without
a beginning and without an end, I did not know from whom this was. So
these shaimos,
the pages, where by me like a treasure. I guarded them vigilantly,
and every day I went with the book into the fields and I read, and
immediately I carried out what I read, and I saw such wonders, that
it abnegated, the abnegation of nature, it changed nature!
Once
I sat in my bed. Then a certain friend came, I was a Karlin chusid,
there is a chasidus of Karlin, have you heard of it? So my friend
from the chasidus of Karlin came, I was a Karlin chusid and he was
also a Karlin chusid, and he, and he saw that I read with passion,
with earnest, with love, with great arousal, with fieriness from the
book, so he saw the book, 'The Outpouring of the Soul,' so he said to
me, “What are you doing with this book? You are reading it?!” But
I had already tasted the taste of the book and I saw wonders (he
said that this book is no good?)
Yes, certainly! “This book! It is forbidden to read this book! This
is from the books of Breslov!” Yes. So he said to me, “You read
from this book!” I got very mad, and I got very angry, and I said
to him, “This is not for you! This book is for me! This is good,
this is a holy book, and I see from it great wonders!” So he said
to me, “Animal, you are an animal, you are not human, you have not
hear who Breslov is? That it is forbidden to read from the books of
Breslov! All the admurim
(- chasidic masters) and the whole world are in opposition of Breslov
and you...” So I said to him, “let all all admurim
and all the angels and all... I will not listen to anyone! For me
this is good!” So he hit me and said to me, “You are so brazen
against all the admurim!
Against all the admurim!
Against the Rebbe of Karlin, that he and all of them say, they say it
is forbidden to read from a book, from the books of Breslov, ad you
want to read?!” So he overpowered me and took the book from me with
force, and I remained.... I didn't want to give it to him no matter
what, but he was more, he was stronger than me and he took the book
away from me with force. He went and I remained an orphan without the
book, but I had already read many times from the book and I tasted
the taste. So whatever I remembered, I continued and went out to the
mountains and fields, and I prayed to the blessed G-d that he should
return to me (the book). I was already, I remained without the book,
but I had a gain, that I heard that there is the chasidus of Breslov
- that it is forbidden to learn from the books of Breslov. So I
prayed to the blessed G-d to summon (/make available) for me the
books of Breslov and the chasidim of Breslov. I want to be a Breslov
chasid! Yes, that's how it was, I prayed to the blessed G-d like
that, I prayed to the blessed G-d, and it was not long, and in Safed
lived my teacher the holy Rabbi Yisroel Karduner, Rabbi Yisroel, and
he was a such a novelty, what there isn't in the world. I grew up
amongst great chasidim, stringent chasidim particularly exacting with
the mitzvos,
but I saw this man, I saw that they all stand outside, that they do
not know anything from the faith, and the blessed G-d, and the Torah!
They are all learned, but I saw that in contrast to him, that he is
singular, he is singular in the world, there is none like him. But I
didn't know him, and I didn't
know that there was in Safed Rabbi Yisroel, I didn't know him, I
didn't know. But the blessed G-d, first he informed me that there is
the chasidus of Breslov, that it is forbidden to learn from the books
of Breslov. So I prayed to the blessed G-d that he should give me,
that he should summon (/make available) to me the books of Breslov
and the chasidim of Breslov, I prayed, and the blessed G-d did
wonders with me, supernal kindness. In Safed lived my teacher the
holy Rabbi Yisroel, I did not know him and I had not heard of him, he
was to be found in Meron, and he served Hashem there, alone, there
was not a solitary creature, he had the key to the synagogue of Rabbi
Shimon Bar Yochai, yes, and he was there by himself, in hisbodidus,
and also he would go into the mountains to do hisbodidus and to pray,
and he engaged in the service of Hashem with mesiras
nefesh.
What did the blessed G-d do? He wanted that Rabbi Yisroel should go
from Meron to Tiberius, to Yisroel Ber! But R' Yisroel never left
Meron, even if he would be given all the money in the world, he would
take leave of Meron? Of Rabbi Shimon? Yes? Of a holy place such as
this? And go to Tiberius? What does he have in Tiberius? Everything
that there is in the world, just Meron. The family lived in Safed,
and the whole week he was in Meron, and he went from Sunday, on
Friday he went from Meron to Safed, nu, who would tell Rabbi Yisroel
to go to Tiberius? How?... It is unfortunate that you were not... the
blessed G-d knew that Rabbi Yisroel would not budge from Meron to
Tiberius. What did He do? He sent him a malady on his hand, and the
pain, it was excruciating pain, and the pain intensified from day to
day, from hour to hour, such pain that it was impossible to speak one
word, he was not able to pray nor to do any devotion, and he did not
attribute anything to nature, rather everything was Divine Providence
of the Creator. When he saw such an occurrence so he began to think,
perhaps the will of the Creator is that he should go to Tiberius?
What will be in Tiberius? In Tiberius the weather is hotter than
Meron, than Safed (so he will be healthy) he will not be healthy, but
he will not have such excruciating pain, that he will be able to pray
and engage in the service of Hashem. But even still, even though he
had such pain, and he had what to consider, he had doubts, he had
doubt whether to go, if he leaves (-to leave) Rabbi Shimon and go to
Tiberius? If not? Because he thought, how is it possible such a
thing? When a person is in distress then he runs away from Meron,
from Rabbi Shimon, to Tiberius? It is necessary to run to Rabbi
Shimon, to pray to ask for healing! But not to go! But he had, he had
doubts, perhaps the will of the Creator is that he should go to
Tiberius? Maybe not? So as long as he didn't (-would) know for sure
that the will of the Creator was that he should go to Tiberius, then
immediately he would go, but he did not know. So he had hisbodidus
and he greatly beseeched from the blessed G-d that He should
illuminate in his thoughts, in his mind, what to do? “If the will
of the Creator is that I should go to Tiberius, I will immediately
travel to Tiberius! I want to know just what is the desire of the
Creator; if not, if yes? If yes, if no?” So he had hisbodidus on
this, and he had doubts whether to go or not to go, so he prayed so
much until the blessed G-d illuminated his eyes and brought about
that he saw for certain, that he new clearly, that the desire of the
Creator is that he should go to Tiberius. This was on Wednesday. So
Rabbi Yisroel, got up early in the morning and went to the owner of
the donkeys and rented a donkey to go to Tiberius. On Thursday?! Erev
Shabbos?! He could have went on Sunday! After Shabbos! No! He, since
he knew that the desire of the Creator is that he should go to
Tiberius, so he went on Thursday.
He
came to Tiberius, and he just dismounted from the donkey, he needed a
loaf of bread to eat supper... so he met someone
that was a relative of mine, and he asked this man, he asked him,
“Show me where I can buy bread?” He came, Rabbi Yisroel came on
Thursday, and we, and we – my family, my parents, mother and
father, had started on Sunday to bake bread for sale. And on Thursday
he came, and when he met our relative, so he (- the relative) brought
him to us, to the house, to buy bread. And we had left over two
loaves of bread, then, in the house. In the house of my parents there
were other siblings, there were younger than me, and there were also
older, bigger than me, nu, and the blessed G-d brought about that I
brought out the loaf of breat to this man, and immediately when I saw
him I was confounded from his appearance and from his speech, I had
never seen such a person! The holy grace that was on his visage and
on his every utterance, I was very awed, I was very excited, and I
thought, perhaps; I pray to the blessed G-d that He should summon to
me, perhaps this man, I will have benefit from him, I will have
salvation from him. So then I thought, “but how is it possible for
me to have a connection with him? But he...” I thought that he is a
hidden tzaddik from the 36 tzadikim. A hidden tzaddik, a hidden
tzaddik can go with kifeetzas haderech
(- traverse vast distances with great speed by using Kabalistic
formulae) to Jerusalem! But I, I will not get anything from him! I
don't know where he's from, and where he is, and where he wants to
go? So how will I have a connection to him? As I am thinking this, he
grasped with his hand into his wallet and took out money for me, and
then said to me, “Maybe it would be possible for me to eat the
bread in your house?” I felt that he knew what I am thinking –
how will I have a connection with him, and he... the salvation I will
find by this man! Everything that I need! But how will I have a
connection? So he asked me, “Perhaps I can eat the bread by you?”
Nu, he paid money and the house is ours, my parents were poor,
destitute, and my father was blind, sagi-nur
(-much light, euphemism for blind). Nu, and the how was like the cave
of Rabbi Shimon, like a cave! There is no place to sit! And we
were... we were at the end of the meal (set) to bless the grace after
the meal and recite the recital of Shemma
and lie down to sleep, because it was necessary to get up to make
chalah and bread. Nu,
so I thought, “Father will certainly not agree, and I by myself, I
can not invite a guest without permission from father!” And I was
embarrassed to ask father if this man could eat the bread in our
house. He will tell me, “What are you saying? There is room?...
Where? We need to recite already the recital of Shemma and to lie
down and to sleep, so how?” Yes. So I greatly strengthened myself
and I said, be what may be, even if he strikes me, father will hit
me, I will ask him! So I asked, “Father, take the money of the...
this man asks, he wants to eat the bread by us in the house?!” So
he said to me, “Yes, yes, yes, on the contrary, we have left over
some portions on the fire!” So there was some cooked lentils and
rice, there was some cooked food. So my father said to me, “Yes.”
I saw that this was a salvation for me. He asked me, I thought... He
asked me, and I asked father, and I saw the Divine Providence that
this, from every angle, like... this was Divine Providence, Supernal
Providence and great kindness!
So
then he washed his hands, he made the blessing on the food, and they
recited the recital of Shemma and went to sleep on the floor with the
children, like birds, and he sat next to the door, on the step. There
were steps from the courtyard, descending. He sat on a step. I
merited to hear from him the blessing on the washing of the hands and
the blessing on the bread, so then I saw that this was a great
kindness, that this was a holy tzaddik! Because his speech was holy,
it was like hisbodidus, it was like conversation, like my speaking
now with you, that's how he would speak with the blessed G-d, as if
there was no house, no people, just with the blessed G-d, and I saw
(this) wonder, wondrous! Then I gave him the portion of the cooked
food, so he said to me, “I don't eat; only bread and tea, and the
tea without sugar.” However we did not have kerosene, we did not
have a kerosene stove, we only had coals. It is necessary to know
how, how to make fire, yes, so this took some time until I merited to
make tea, and they already went to sleep inside the house, and I
could not hold back, so in the middle of my work at making the fire I
came to close to him and said to him in a whisper, so that they would
not hear, I said to him in a whisper, “Do you (-respectful plural)
know? You came to Tiberius for me! Because I am situated in a very
harsh predicament, the evil inclination is overwhelming me and... so
I am certain that the blessed G-d sent you to Tiberius, I... and you
came to Tiberius for me, and so I am asking you not to abandon me...”
I said to him in a whisper, “not to abandon me...” And I saw that
he was very moved! He was reluctant (/persistent) to leave for
Tiberius from Meron, and he didn't know, and he had doubts. Now he
saw that this was from the onset from the blessed G-d that he should
travel... And from that night we merited to connect with such a bond
that it was an awesome novelty, and immediately there was a huge
commotion in Tiberius! I, my name is Yisroel Ber, so there was an
uproar in Tiberius, “Oy vay such a great pity, Yisroel Ber has
become a Breslover!” (they
were all opposed?)
Yes! All of them! Nu, and father and mother heard. Then they were
bear very much grievance, but the gabbai
of the Yeshiva came to them, and other individuals, intellectuals,
chasidim, they have a reputation and fame, they said to father, “Do
you know that Yisroel Ber has become a Breslover?!” So he said to
them, “The son, you know that my son is Heaven fearing, he fulfills
(the commandment of) honoring one's father. If I send him to fire,
then he will go to the fire, there is nothing... he fulfills
honoring one's father singular in the whole world! So I am not
worried, he will come from the Yeshiva...” I was in the Yeshiva,
with Rabbi Yisroel, we learned together, and this made a name for me
that I had become a Breslover! So I came from the Yeshiva on
Thursday, I came from the Yeshiva, so father said to me, “Know my
son, that there were by me the greats of the Yeshiva and they told me
that you have become a Breslover! I ask of you not to cause me pain,
I give you permission, you are a Karlin and I am a Karlin, I give you
permission if you want to be Gur, or Lubovitch, or any type of
chasidus that you desire you can be, just one request I have, not to
be a Breslover! Just not a Breslover! Be any chasidus that you want,
you can do as you please, just without being a Breslover!” So this
was the first time that I transgressed honoring one's father, and I
said to him, “Father, on everything I will listen you, just this
matter no! I can not listen to you!” So he saw, “What is this?
This is utterly terrible! He fulfills
his whole life, all the years, honor of one's father (even) with
mesiras
nefesh,
and now he... what? What! What is this?”
Nu,
I went with Rabbi Yisroel, he told me that he wants to be in any
synagogue, and he wanted to say (the prayers special for) midnight,
and to put on phylacteries, and to pray, and to do hisbodidus. So I
went from synagogue to synagogue, but they were all closed, and they
did not have room. So it occurred to me that there is the synagogue
of the holy tzaddikim that were before hundred years, the disciples
of the Baal Shem Tov, they were holy tzaddikim, R' Avrohom Kalisker
and the grandfather of Rabbainu, R' Nachman Hordenker, that our holy
master, he was named after the name of his grandfather, yes, and he,
and holy tzaddikim they prayed in this synagogue, and they built the
synagogue and they endeavored for a place close to, that it should be
close to the sea, to immerse and to pray after immersing. But in the
winter when it was difficult, the water rose of itself above, there
was water, the water raised itself, and the sea entered the
synagogue, that's how it was until now (/here), so they were not able
to pray, so they left it for a few... for a month, two months, they
left all the tables, yes, so this synagogue was open, what does it
have? What? They took the books and everything, just the tables
remained. So we entered this synagogue, into the sea, and we sat the
whole night, and he learned with me Torah from Likutay Moharan.
So
there was an event, my mother she worried about me, because she saw
that I was not to be found, it was already near daylight and I was
not to be found. So she thought, “Who knows? Who knows?” She knew
that some man came and bought bread and he ate, but where is the man?
And where is Yisroel Ber? She went from synagogue to synagogue to
search for me, with great crying, but she didn't find me, they were
closed, so she was crying greatly and her clamor could be heard
throughout the whole city. Tiberius was a small town and they all
came. “What is this? What is this shrieking?” They thought that
G-d forbid there was a death, that someone had died. They came in the
morning and inquired, “What was that crying? What was that
hollering?” She told them, “Some man came and he bought bread and
ate by us,” and so forth and so on... “he went with him and he is
not to be found in the house!” So everyone knew; Rabbi Yisroel went
to pray in the synagogue, so they all were acquainted with him, just
not me, because I never left Tiberius, because I didn't have money to
travel to Meron. In any event, from that night on, thank G-d, until
today, I am telling this over to you in short, because I do not have
strength to speak, but the main thing is how the blessed G-d was
proactive, how I merited, how I merited to know from Rabbainu. First
of all, I did not know from Rabbainu, I did not know from the name of
Breslov, and He brought about that I came to know that there were
books of Breslov, that it is forbidden to read from them, and thank
G-d I stood firm, I held up, I beat them all, and I laughed from
them! They laughed from me, but I laughed from them.... He brought
Rabbi Yisroel, He took him out forcefully from Meron and brought him
to Tiberius, and He brought him from the donkey straight to my house,
and from this came out.... from nothing (-ex nihilo) – existence!
He did such a thing, that I was a poor child, and I was inferior,
wretched, and also, I didn't have... I was not talented, I did not
mental prowess to learn and to... (simple) yes....
Na
Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman
Rectification
of the Messiah
The
whole world will come to the Messiah, “Give us a rectification! I
want a rectification!” Rectification? This is available to give
immediately, there already is Likutay Moharan, everyone has a
rectification.
I?
I am Na Nach Nachma Nachman Me-Uman (-from Uman).
I
is the acronym Na Nach Nachma Nachman Me-Uman. This already includes
the entire world with all... with all the sins everything;
rectification, rectification, rectification, I am Rabbi Nachman this
is Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman.
We
don't know anything. Our holy master finished everything. The day and
the month when the Messiah our vindicator will come, and how his
arrival will be, and the book is called Megillas Sturreem (-scroll of
secrets).
Rabbainu
revealed, and Rabbi Nussun transcribed. He revealed a drop in the
ocean, whomever knew, whomever merited to attain conception, this is
above our intellect, above the whole world, from the Torah, from
everything! This is the light of the blessed G-d Himself. And it is
written in the Petek, in the letter of Rabbainu, “and upon you I
said, my fire will burn until the Messiah is coming.” This Messiah,
this I know, in the month of Nissan he will arrive. So our holy
master and Rabbi Nussun, they knew everything, when the Messiah will
come and how it will be. I already saw Messiah our vindicator.
Now
is the time of the redemption, it needs to be revealed huge
lights....
The
Petek is Messiah – it reminds us that there is Messiah. But the
Jews who don't believe, they don't want to accept the Torah. However
it can be seen now that the era of the Messiah has arrived. This is
just the beginning. He will come, he will come, and he will come. The
Torah will rise, rise, and rise. Everyone will engage just in the
Torah of Rav Nachman; Likutay Moharan, Likutay Tfilos (prayers),
Likutay Halachos, (this is a segula for the era of the
Messiah) Yes!
This is the truth, but chabad is falsehood (for this
reason Shazar told you that he isn't chabad, in his heart he is a
Breslover)
yeah, to me he said that he is just Breslov, but all of them were
opposers, the admur
and all of them were opposers, so he was quiet, but he left over in
writing what he left over....
As
can be seen in the letter, “upon you I said, my fire will burn
until the Messia will come,” nu, “until Messiah is coming” we
don't know. Our holy master revealed when he will come, but we don't
know anything. Rabbainu revealed the day that the Messiah will come,
but we don't know. Just R' Nussun, he heard from Rabbainu this
secret, when the Messiah will come, and it is written on me, “upon
you I said my fire will burn till the Messiah will come” (and
with the strengthening of devotion)
“you will understand it, and a sign, the 17th
of Tamuz they will say I don't fast.” (Rabbainu
says etc. And with the strengthening of devotion you will understand
it)
I don't understand, “you will understand it.” It is possible that
in another 50 years, another 100 years. (There
was the dream, “the time of redemption is very close,”)
Yeah! This was by R' Yisroel from Kardun, I took the valise and
extracted a piece of paper, and there remained in my hand a piece of
paper, and on the paper was written, “the time of the redemption is
very soon,” in large and very beautiful letters.
(very soon, how soon?)
I don't know, whenever it will be, it will be soon, very soon. “And
upon you I said, my fire will burn until the Messiah is coming,” it
seems from this that I will be at the arrival of the Messiah, at the
arrival of the Messiah I will be alive. “Upon you I said my fire
will burn until <Saba very much stressed this word “until”>
the Messiah is coming,” but we do not know when the Messiah is
coming. There is a Petek, “The time
of the redemption
is very
near”
four words... “and a sign, the 17th
of Tamuz they will say you don't fast.”
(This year is the year of Shmita, and it says in the Talmud that the
redemption will be after the Shmita)
Yes, they say that I will live, until the coming of the Messiah,
afterwards I will also live. When the Messiah comes then it is good
to live.... (you will merit to live until the Messiah
comes)
Yes, it is written until the Messiah comes, “my fire will burn
until <-drawing long on this word> the Messiah is coming.” He
will rectify the whole world with his name Na Nach, sufficient for
the whole world Na Nach Nachmu Nachmun Me'Uman (is
there another song – single, double, triple, quadruple in the
world?)
There is, there is a lot, but he [Saba sings:] we are fortunate, how
good is our portion, and how pleasant is our allotment, and how
beautiful our inheritance, we are fortunate, we are fortunate... they
danced 'we are fortunate, how good... we are fortunate' this was a
dance and song together, “We are fotunate, how good is our portion,
and how pleasant is our allotment.” (Rabbi Nussun he
ran from the stones)
He asked the blessed G-d... and do you know who will reveal?
(Messiah)
“Our grandeur and our splendour will be revealed by the Messiah our
vindicator.” “We are fortunate, how good is our portion, and how
pleasant is our allotment.” He said to the blessed G-d, R' Nussun
said to the blessed G-d that he does not know anything at all, the
Messiah will reveal everything. We have on whom to rely upon. “Our
grandeur and our splendour will be revealed by Messiah our
vindicator....” Messiah our vindicator... he said with such melody,
this is a tune of Rabbainu ob”m, “Our grandeur and our spendour
will be revealed by Messiah our vindicator...” Ah! Good, nu, a few
more stones then we are continuing to make melodies…
Good! Good! Very good! The bigger the stone is, the nicer the melody
is. The bigger the stones are, the nicer the melody is… “Our
greatness and our grandeur our righteous Messiah will reveal,” The
stone was bigger, so the melody need to be nicer, “Our greatness
and grandeur, our righteous Messiah will reveal…..” (Saba,
what is better, to write Na Nach or to photocopy it and put it into a
kumaya?)
It is better to write.
The
Land of Israel
Just
we are the landlords of the world!
They
said, “The State of Israel! And the conquerors of the State of
Israel!” Suddenly in one day we conquered the land of Israel,
without a state, without money, and without weapons, they don't –
they understand this? It is impossible to dissent... and also
Jerusalem? They are amazed, “what is this?” And our state can
make laws that we do not sell to gentiles! Not land and not houses,
just Jews! And they can not say anything! They can not fight! We have
conquered! The land is ours! The State of Israel the State of the
Jews! They come to Israel, they see that all of them are nothing,
just the main thing is the Land of Israel, the Temple, Jerusalem, the
Land of Israel, a Jew and Torah, Torah, yes. They see and feel
(sense) that we are the landlords of the world! The Torah! Yes. Nu, I
already put on two pairs (of Tefilin)?
Both
the secular and the Jews; the secular say, "what is this, we
conquered the Land of Israel? How did we capture it? Who? We have a
state?!" Also the whole world were opposed to the Jews, that
they should enter the Land of Israel. The English guarded the sea so
that the Jews wouldn't come to Israel. The English, the Americans,
and everyone, the whole world: "Israel, no! Jews, no!" And
Breslov? They all said, "No!, Breslov, no!" There are
hasidim, there are hasidic masters, but Breslov? No! Now they say,
"Just Breslov! Just the Torah!..." They, the world sees
with its eyes, it is impossible to relate, on the contrary, something
that everyone sees! Something that is clear! A house, it impossible
to say that there is no house, this is a house! All the gentiles see
now that the main thing is the Torah and the Jews, we have a state
and everything, all the best! The gentiles don't have everything,
there are things, and there is everything, more than the whole world!
Blessing! They are jealous of the air and of the light of the Land of
Israel. They, the whole world, they cry, the gentiles are full of
depression, like the order of wars and... just the Jews... we...
there is a state, her name is: "The State of Israel - and the
State of the Jews", what is heard (news) with the Jews? They see
that we conquered the Land of Israel, without a state, without a
government, without money, without weapons, we conquered the Land of
Israel! And the gentiles want this.... We conquered the whole world.
And also our holy master and his holy disciple Rav Nussun, they are
the landlords of the whole world! Two men, they laugh from the whole
world! This is just the beginning, the Messiah will come! Messiah
needs to come....
-
Words of Saba Yisroel
There
are many more recordings remaining in need of translation, may the
Holy Merciful One G-d help us see that they are translated and made
available very soon, amen.
Na
Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman
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