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In the daily prayers
a Jew does a full confession, running through an alphabetic category
of infractions and violations while tapping his/her chest on each
item; in the morning prayer, afternoon prayer, and midnight
rectification. Unless a person is a spiritual giant, the likes of
Rabbi Yisroel Karduner who broke his heart over each item, chances
are that most of the time this ritual is done mostly with remote,
even the allotted time given to this section of the prayer – when
praying with a minion (quorum) is negligible and in no way avails for
a proper heartfelt change of heart. Today however I realized an
amazing benefit from even the perfunctory confession. One of the most
important and yet astonishingly difficult things in life is to admit
wrongdoing and stand up and take responsibility. A person's first
response is to deny, and then everything goes rapidly downhill,
almost irreversible. However a simple Jew who is very accustomed to
tapping his chest 66 times a day (numerical value as “horse” -
soos, and if Sefardi, another 15 times for the added end letters of
mantzepa”ch, making it 81, numerical value of “anger” - aff)
and saying out loud, time and time again, I am wrong, I have sinned,
makes it very very possible that when something goes wrong he will
actually be prone to splurt out (if this isn't a word, it is high time to make it one) those very words without worrying
about the consequences, which is an amazing chance for restoration,
fixing, and ultimate peace.
Na Nach Nachma
Nachman MeUman!
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