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Likutay Tefilos 21
A Collection of Prayers
Prayer 21
“My calling is
to Hashem and I scream, my calling is to Hashem and I supplicate (/seek His
grace) (Psalms 142:2).” “My call is to Eloah”im[1] and
He listens to me (Psalms 77:2).” “From the belly of Sheol (-hell) I cried out,
You heard my call (Jonah 2:3).” “And my cry came to You, to Your holy chamber.[2]” “My
call You heard, do not hide Your ear from (listening to the prayers for) my
relief, from my cry (Lamentation 3:56).” “Hear Hashem my call that I call out,
and be gracious with me and answer me (Psalms 27:7).” “Our cries receive, and
listen to our screaming, He who know the mysterious/hidden (Prayer of Unuh
Bikoach),” Master of the World, He who listens with mercy to the call of the
cry of His nation Israel. Have mercy and be gracious with us, and have
compassion on us, and be to our succor, and prepare/set our hearts that we
should scream and holler to You in truth until You answer us, “we will cry out
and You shall say, ‘Here I am’(Isaiah 58:9 – and He shall say…).” And the call
of our screaming should ‘go and gain great strength (Exodus 19:19)’, and we
shall not give You respite, until You are gracious with us, and listen to our
call, and heed our cry, and have mercy on us in Your mercies, and we should
merit to reveal, and to illuminate, and to beget holy minds/consciousnesses
which are presently hidden from us due to our sins in great hiddenness and
great concealment, to the extent that, due to our sins, we don’t have daas
(-holy realization of knowledge) now to know/recognize You and to serve You in
truth, and we do not merit to come up with real true novelties (-chidushim)
in Your holy Torah.
Master of the World, before You
is revealed all the mysterious/hidden things, and You know our hearts, that we
are so alienated from You now, so very much so that mortification covers our
faces, and we are ashamed to ask and request from You this, that You reveal to
us the mysteries and the secrets of the Torah, because we don’t know what to
ask for first, because we still did not begin to purify and sanctify ourselves
whatsoever. However, You know the great preciousness of the holiness of our
souls in our roots, because You chose us from all the nations, and called us a
holy nation[3], a
nation of segoolah (-priceless treasure, even above metaphysics and
rational), as it is written (Exodus 19:5), “and You (plural) will be from me a segoolah
from all the nations,” and as it is written (Psalms 135:4), “Because Jacob,
Y”uh (-G-d) chose him, Israel as his segooluh.” Have mercy and
compassion on Your segooluh and Your beloved, on Your nation and Your
inheritance, on Your coveted desirable of all the hosts (of nations)[4],
whom You called (us) with all expressions of endearment in Your love and in
Your compassion, You loved us, and You desired us, and You exalted us from all
the nations, and You our king drew us close to Your service. May Your innards
moan over us, Your mercies kindle/whelm over our lowliness and our degradation,
arise in our help and save us, and put in our hearts to scream to You always,
until You have mercy on us and return Your countenance to us, and draw us
close. Even though I know, that according to my great alienation from You, with
thousands and myriads of alienations, there is no power in my scream to arouse
and to beget the hidden moachin (-minds, consciousnesses), and even if I had
the power to scream and holler all the callings of all the creations of the
world, they would not suffice for me, even for what I need to scream over one
of my alienations of one day. And there isn’t any call in the world that has
the power to help me according to my great alienation from you, “even though I
scream and cry out, He shuts [the windows of heaven before] my prayer
(Lamentations 3:8).” All the more so, and all the more so, that I have not even
begun to scream as I am capable. However, You have already made known to us,
that You are full of mercy for us at all times and at every instant, and in
Your abundant mercies You listen and hear all the callings of the world, from
the depths of the depths, as it is written (Jonah 2:3), “from the belly of
scheol (-hell) I cried out, You heard my call.” Therefore “I base my reliance/precepts[5]”
on Your great goodnesses and graciousnesses, because upon You abundant mercies
I am confidant, and upon Your kindness I rely, and for Your forgiveness I hope,
and for Your salvation I await. And I have come to spread out my palms before
You Hashem our G-d and the G-d of our fathers, help me, and be gracious to me,
and arouse my heart in truth, that I should merit to truly feel my enormous
pain, the pain of my soul (-nefesh, lowest part of the soul, seated in the
blood), and my ruach (-spirit - mid level), and my neshama (-soul seated in the
intellect), and I should merit to see, and to understand the utter magnitude of
my alienation from You, and (You should) merit me to scream to You always with
all my strength, and You should be full of mercy on me, and hear my defected
call, and listen to my warped cry. And (You should) have mercy on me in Your
mercies, and help me to fix my call, and raise me from (having a) defected call
to a good call. And (You should) merit me to scream both in Torah and in
Prayer, until I merit in Your abundant mercies, to arouse and sire with my call
the hidden moachin (-minds, consciousnesses) that disappeared from us due to
our sins. And due to our abundant sins we have, so to speak, weakened the
supernal strength, to the extent that it is as if the power of the Shechina
(-Divine Presence) has been too weakened to beget the moachin, as it is written,
“<Tzoor> the Rock/Creator <yiludchuh teshee> has been made too weak
to beget (moachin) for you[6]
(Deuteronomy 32:18).” “Because the sons (are likened to women whom) have come
to the birth-stool but do not have the strength to give birth (Kings II:19:3,
Isaiah 37:3).”
Master of the Universe, do for
Your sake and not for our sake, do for the sake of Your Shechina (-Divine
Presence), and help us to scream to You in truth, in Torah, and in prayer, and
our call “should rise, and come, and arrive[7]”
to You, and receive the call of our screams in place of the screams of the
Shechina, until we merit to arouse and beget our hidden holy moachin (-minds,
consciousnesses) which have disappeared from us. Because You alone know the
hidden, and before You are revealed the hidden moachin of each and every one of
us, where they have disappeared and hidden from us. Help us, and save us and
all of Your nation the House of Israel, that each and every on of us merit to
arouse, through the call of our screams, the holy moachin which have
disappeared from each and every one to the place where they disappeared, until
each and every one will merit every time to sire, and to reveal, and to attain
new moachin which belong/conform to him, according to the root of his nefesh
(-lower soul), his ruach (-spirit, mid soul), and his neshama (-third soul
seated in the intellect). And we should merit to truly know/recognize/be
familiar with You, and to know You every time with (overly) more understanding,
and we should merit to reveal Your divinity in the world.
And in this vein, may it be the
will before You <Yihee rutzoan meelifunechuh> Hashem our G-d and the G-d
of our fathers, full of mercy, that You have mercy on us, and (that You) help
us, and save us quickly that we should begin from now to sanctify the seven
(candle like) flames which illuminate opposite the countenance of the holy
menorah, (the seven-) which are the (two) eyes, and the (two) ears, and the
mouth, and the nose (-two nostrils). And (You should) merit me to sanctify my
mouth so that no word of falsehood leaves my mouth ever, and neither any word
which defects the mouth Heaven forbid, just, all my words should be words of
truth always in holiness and in purity, and I should merit to sanctify my mouth
with Torah, and prayer, and with all types of words which sanctify the mouth.
And (You should) merit me to sanctify my eyes, and merit me to shut my eyes
from seeing evil, and be to my succor so that I don’t have any glimpse of
anything of this world whatsoever, and especially help me, and save me, and
rescue me, so that I do not look Heaven forbid at anything which brings to
(improper) thoughts Heaven forbid, have mercy and be gracious with me, and have
compassion on me, and save me, rescue my soul from now (on) from defection of
sight, and I shall not prospect after (the desires of) my heart and after (the
desires of) my eyes, “withdraw/shift my eyes from beholding vanity, in Your
ways gives me life (Psalms 119:37).” And merit me to sanctify my ears, and I
should merit to always hear the words of true sages and to believe in them, and
I should have consummate emoonas chachumim (-faith in the sages),
and (You should) be to my succor that I incline my ears always to hear the
words of the true sages and that their words should enter in my ears and truly
arouse my heart to return to You and to do Your will always. And (You should)
guard me, and save me so that I never hear and that they never enter into my
ears any defected speech, and I should not hear and I shall not accept any word
of lushoan hura (-evil tongue) or richeeloos (– tale-bearing), and I should not
hear words of profanity ever, and neither any defected speech, just, I should
merit to hear always holy words from the mouths of true tzadikim and kosher
people, words that sanctify the ears of the listener. And merit me that I
should have true fear of Heaven, and through this I will merit to sanctify my
nose, and there will be fulfilled in me the verse which states (Isaiah 11:3), “and
he will have the sense of smell by (virtue of his) fear of Hashem.”
And all that I have defected
until now in these seven (candle-like) flames through my abundant sins and
defects, that I transgressed, erred, and sinned before You, and I defected
(with) my mouth, and my eyes, and my ears, and my nose from my youth until
today, unintentionally (bishoagaig) and intentionally (bimaizeed) coerced/ensnared
(bi-oaness) and willfully (birutzoan), on all of them (You should) pardon and
forgive me Merciful [One Who is] “gracious and prolific to forgive,[8]”
and rectify in Your mercies all these defects, because we abounded to sin and
defect with them, because who can fathom, or calculate, or count the sins and
the defects with the words of our mouths, from the day we were on the earth
until today, and how much falsehood went out from my mouth almost every single
day, and similarly the other sins and great defects which I defected with the
words of my mouth, with words of lushoan hura (-evil tongue), and richeeloos
(-tale-bearing), and laytzanoos (-mockery), and idle chatter without measure,
and calculation, and counting, and especially the numerous and enormous, vast
and great defects that I defected with my eyes, who can fathom them or
count/relate them, who can enumerate them verbally, and I am unable even to
make confession on them, all the more so (I am unable to) to make copious
rectifications according to these abundant defects to rectify them, because
there has yet to transpire over me one day of my life which I didn’t defect on
it with my eyes, unintentionally (bishoagaig) and intentionally (bimaizeed) coerced/ensnared (bi-oaness) and willfully
(birutzoan), and You alone know to where the defect of the eyes reaches, for
all the whole entire Torah is contingent upon them, oy (-woe) to me, veye
(-woe) to me, what can I say what can I speak? If I (set out to) relate like an
infinitesimal fringe of the defect of the eye which I defected on every single
day, the time would run out and they would not be exhausted, “if I were to
count them they would be more numerous than the sand (Psalms 139:18).” So if
You Yourself (-in person) do not act for Your sake Heaven forbid, and rectify
all these enormous defects in Your mercies, it is not in our hands to rectify
even one defect of them, all the more so all of them. “If Y”uh (-Gd) retains
sins, Adoan”ai (-Gd) who can stand (-endure)? For with You is forgiveness, so
that You You be feared (Psalms 130:3-4).” Have mercy and compassion on us, have
mercy and compassion on us, because we don’t have the intellect and daas (-holy
realization of knowledge) how to lenify and appease You over all these huge and
terrible defects that we defected until now in/with these seven holy
(candle-like) flames which are drawn form the holy mind. And from the utter
enormous multitude of these defects that we defected in/with these seven
flames, through this our daas (-holy realization of knowledge) has been defected,
and our intellect has rotted, and our minds and our daas have been confused,
and because of this I am visited with questionings, and confusions, and
perversions of the heart, and my daas and my heart are being severely confused
and perverted, to the extent that I cannot draw close to any matter of holiness
properly, and there is a desire to alienate us completely Heaven forbid from
Your service in truth.
Master of the Universe, You know
the bitterness of my heart, You know the bitter perversions of my heart. You
know who they are exactly (-“who and who”) who rise against us all the times
and at every instant, “Hashem how plentiful are my adversaries, many rise up
against me (Psalms 3:2).” And (as if) it’s not enough with our souls’ abundant
hardships tat we have through all bad desires, that we transgressed, and erred,
and sinned very copiously before You, through that which we went after the bad
dictates/wanton[9] of
our hearts, and we defected in Your great Name, and many worlds were destroyed
through our abundant sins, as You alone know how many defects we caused through
our abundant sins. And as if all of this was not enough for us, in addition
they have risen thickly braided upon our throats[10],
and extremely confuse our daas (-holy realization of knowledge), and pervert
our hearts profusely with many foolish questions on Hashem Yisburach and on
true tzadikim, and desire to distance us from the (central) point of the truth
Heaven forbid. Master of the World, have mercy and compassion on us, and do not
judge us according to our deeds, and do not deal with us in congruence with our
transgressions. And have mercy on us and berate those who pursue (to attack)
us, and distance and banish from us and from all Your nation the House of
Israel all types of bad thoughts, and contemplations/fantasies, and perversions
of the heart, and twisted questioning and foolish (philosophical) enquiries
that desire to rise on the heart to confuse (people) Heaven forbid (away) from
Your true service. And fix with Your mercies so that there should not rise
anymore in our hearts any nuance of (improper) musing and thought whatsoever of
this kind, of the type of these quandaries and confusions, “Because I am
brutish less than a man, and I do not have man’s understanding (Proverbs
30:2).” “And I am brutish and without cognizance, I was like an animal with You
(Psalms 73:22).”
Master of the Universe, have
mercy and compassion on us, and merit us to true perfect faith, that we should
merit to believe in You and in Your true tzadikim truthfully and
wholeheartedly. And we should not incline our hearts to any dilemma or any
quandary in the world whatsoever, and they should not rise and they should not
enter in our hearts and minds whatsoever, just, we should cast away our warped
and confused intellect, and rely just on faith alone. Because we are flesh and
blood, a lump of earth, hewed from clay[11],
heated with sin, filthy with transgression, and how is it possible for one born
from a woman, a putrid drop, to attain conception and to understand a matter of
Your ways and practices/managements? And we should merit not to use our
intellect, except for Your service, and for Your Torah, and for awe of You in
truth, and we should not begin to ponder in our minds any quandary of this
world whatsoever, and we shall know and believe truly and with consummate faith
that You are righteous and upright/straight (yushur), as it is written
(Deuteronomy 32:4), “The Rock/Creator his performance is wholesome (tumim), for
all His ways are (with) justice, a faithful Gd and without iniquity, righteous
(tzadik) and upright/straight (yushur) is He.” And it says (Psalms 92:16), “To
declare that Hashem is upright, my Rock/Creator, and there is no injustice by
Him.” And guard us with Your abundant mercies, and save us and our children,
and all of Your nation the House of Israel, that we should not learn, and not
glance at all in the books of the naturalists (/scientists/philosophers),
neither in the books of research of the pagans, nor in the books of research of
Israel (-the Jews), and we should/shall not be favorably inclined and not heed
them[12]
whatsoever, and we should/shall not go in their ways, and not step in their
paths, and not give attention to their words, and their derailed words and queries,
and their questions and (their) quandaries should/shall not enter into our ears
and into our minds whatsoever. Because You know the many great evils, and the
many destructions which the naturalists caused us through their queries and
their fallaciousness, because they desire to distance us Heaven forbid from
Your true service. Have mercy and compassion on Your great and holy glory, and
do for the sake of Israel Your nation, and for the sake of their forefathers,
Avruhum, Yitzchuk, and Yaakoav, and for the sake of Moshe and Aharoan, Dovid
and Shloamoa, and for the sake of the twelve tribes of Y”uh, and for the sake
of the holy elders, and the true prophets, the first ones and the later ones,
and for the sake of all the Tana-im (-sages of the Mishna) and Amoaru-im
(-sages of the Talmud), and for the sake of all the tzadikim, and truly kosher
people that were in every single generation. And have mercy on the remnants of
Your nation Israel in this time of trouble, the likes of which never were, that
they desire Heaven forbid, now, at the heel (-imminent arrival) of the Messiah,
for the outspread Heaven forbid of philosophy in the world, and they desire to
ensnare the souls of Israel in their ways and reasonings, and no one takes to
heart to feel the this great plight in their heart, the likes of which never
were in history, this being the main birth-pangs of Messiah, and regarding this
great calamity all our prophets and true sages prophesized in advance, as it is
written (Daniel 12:1), “And it will be a time of trouble [for Yaakov (-this
Hebrew word is not found in this verse, but in a similar verse in Jeremiah
30:7)] which [the likes of (-this Hebrew word in not found in this verse, but
is used in the verse in Jeremiah 30:7)] never was.” And like Daniel prophesized
with his ruach hakoadesh (-Divine spirit), as it is written (Daniel 12:10),
“(The) Many will be culled and cleaned and refined, but the wicked will be
wicked, and all the wicked will not understand, but the maskeeleem (-intelligentsia)
will understand.” Master of the entire world[13],
You alone know the great magnitude of this plight of which there is nothing
similar, “fatiguing distress and ostracizing darkness (Isaiah 8:22),” and there
is no one to stand up for us, because the true tzadikim passed away due to our
sins. Have mercy and compassion on us, may Your mercies be aroused on Your
sons, and protects us, and guard us, and save us, and rescue our souls, and save
us in Your mercies, us and all of our society, and all of Your nation the House
of Israel, from all the evil and alien opinions and reasonings of all the
naturalists and the philosophers, from both, the pagan naturalists, and (from)
the naturalists of Israel (-Jews) who were also caught in this evil net and
trap of queries (of naturalism) and philosophy. And don Your vengeance and gird
Your might, and uproot, and break, and quash, and nullify their evil thoughts
from the world, and all the heretics, and all who are intent on/committed to
sinning, and all the apostates, and all the apeekorsim[14]
should perish in an instant, and there should not be left a remembrance or
recollection of any reasoning of their reasonings, nor any opinion of their
opinions. Have mercy and compassion on us, have mercy and be gracious with us,
and save and rescue us and our children and all of Your nation the House of
Israel, from all their books, and from all their opinions, and from all their
reasonings, because not in these is the portion of Jacob (cf. Jeremiah 10:16),
not in these is our portion, not in these is our lot, because we are the
children of Avruhum, Yitzchuk, and Yisroel Your servants, believers sons of
believers (maameenim binay maameenim), and we believe in You Hashem our G-d,
and in Your true tzadikim, with true complete faith, without any queries
whatsoever, because You are righteous and upright, and You rule the entire
world with the attribute of kindness and mercy, as it is written (Psalms 145:9),
“Hashem is good to all, and His mercies are on all His works.”
Please Adon”ai (-Hashem), may
Your innards moan over us, “hear my call when I call (out to) You (Psalms
141:1),” and be to our succor, that we should merit to beget always the hidden
moachin (-minds, consciousnesses) through the call of our screaming. And have
mercy on us, and save us, and merit us to truly sanctify and purify the seven
(candle-like) flames which go out from the mind in our heads, which are: the
mouth, and two eyes, and two ears, and two nostrils. And through this we should
merit to draw to ourselves the light of the countenance which is shefa Eloahee
(-Divine Bestowal/flux), which is the attainment of the holy makeefeem
(-peripheral surrounding spiritual presence) of the intellect, and bestow on us
Your ruach hakoadesh (-the holy spirit i.e. the Divine spirit), and we should
merit in Your mercies to understand and to attain every time new makeefeem of
holiness, and we should merit to understand, and to have astute insight in the
depth of Your secrets. And (You should) help us that we merit each time to
(overly) more holiness, in order that we merit each time to attain new
makeefeem, to insert them inside into our intellect, to understand and to
attain conception each time of new understanding and conceptions of holiness,
what we previously did not know to understand and conceive. And we should merit
to know (-be familiar, acquaintance) You also in this world, and to attain
conception of Your greatness and loftiness, everything that is possible to
attain conception of in this world, because for this we were created, to know
and to attain conception of You. And You by-and-by are going to take an
accounting and reckoning from us over this, on whoever did not strive to truly
sanctify himself in this world until he attained conception of Your divinity,
and knowledge of Your loftiness blessed and exalted is Your name forever. Have
mercy and compassion on us, and help us in Your mercies to attain higher
conceptions each time in holiness and in purity, in truth and with perfect
faith. The truth I know, Master of the Entire World, that I am now so far from
this to the extent that I cannot even request, and supplicate, and implore You
for this now, but what can I do for (-as) my Father in Heaven has decreed (me
to). Because You Yourself decreed upon us in Your Torah through Your true
tzadikim, that we endeavor and try with all our might always to know (-be
familiar, acquaintance), and to attain conception, and to know You in truth and
wholeheartedly. Have mercy and be gracious with me with gratuitous gifting,
that we merit to truly sanctify ourselves with exceeding holiness, and bestow
in our hearts strengthening and emboldment, that we should be strong in our
convictions to supplicate and implore You over this. Because You are our
Father, and You desire to do good/favors with us, with Your true goodness, with
all types of true good things, and You anticipate always to reveal to us, and
to make known to us Your hidden cache of goodness and Your high conceptions
(hasagoas), and there is no restriction just from our side. Rise to our help,
and save us to scream to You always in truth and with a whole heart, and to
purify and sanctify ourselves with all types of purity and holinesses, and to
abound in prayer, and entreaty, and words of conciliation and appeasement
before You always, until we merit each time to attain conception and to insert
new makeefeem (-peripheral surrounding spiritual presence) of holiness into our
minds and intellects. And merit us to the future world (Oalum Habuh), to the
world which is entirely good, and there You will merit us in Your mercies to be
included in You, and to attain all the holy makeefeem of the intellect which
were not possible in any way to attain in this world. And we will merit in Your
mercies to eternal life, to good and long life from now until forever, forever
and ever, and for all eternity. And (You should) merit us to have complete holy
daas (-realization of knowledge), and we should merit to know that all is for
our benefit, and all the good bounties will be drawn to us without lacking
anything.
And (You should) have mercy on us
in Your abundant mercies, and merit us and all of Your nation the House of
Israel, that there should remain from us a remnant on Earth, in this world,
after our passing from the world after (a life of) lengthy days and years, that
we should merit that our children, and children’s children endure forever, and
for generations until the end of all the generations. And our names and memory
should endure forever through our progeny that will remain after us. And (You
should) merit us with many sons and with daughters, in holiness and in purity,
and we should merit to see sons to our sons, and there should not be among us
or our progeny sterile (men) or barren (women). And have mercy on them, and
bestow upon them life, and longevity of days and years, so that all our
descendants (“of our loins) will have longevity of days and years, and they
will all be engaged in Your Torah lishmuh (-for its own sake, for the sake of
the Shechina) and fulfill Your mitzvoas (-commandments), and they will all be
holy and pure from all sin and transgression, and they will do Your will, and
engage in Your service in truth all their days, forever, in such a way that our
sons after us will draw the intellect of the countenance into the world after
our passing, and they will reveal and publicize Your Divinity and Sovereignty
in the world, and our memory will be left for all the generations forever.
Merciful [One], “Who devises
schemes so that there shall not be[15]
rejected from You (-in the verse: Him) a reject (cf. Samuel 2:14:14),” may Your
mercies well up over us, and rise up and bring us salvation, and save us, and
our children, and all the children of Your nation the House of Israel, so that
Your entire nation of Israel should not need to come to the necessity of chaleetzuh[16]
nor to the necessity of yeeboom. And there should be a fulfillment with
us of the verse which writes (Psalms 128:6), “And see sons to your sons, peace
upon Israel.[17]”
Because You alone know the utter magnitude of pity there is on the soul of the
deceased without living progeny Heaven forbid, that the soul goes naked and
does not have the ability to rise to its original place, and it cannot return to
the house of her (-soul is feminine) father, and she (-the soul being feminine)
goes vagabond and beleaguered/crazed, and she has no rest for the sole of her
foot[18].
Master of the World, have mercy on us in Your abundant mercies and Your
enormous kindnesses, and save us, and our children, and all Your nation the
House of Israel, so that not one of them goes from the world without living
progeny, just, all of them should leave after themselves sons and daughters
live and well (-enduring), engaged in the (study of the) Torah and (doing the)
mitzoas), and all of them should make many children (“fruit”), their saplings
should go (-grow) forth (cf. Hosea 14:7), their branches should grow long (cf.
Ezekiel 31:5), “They will still be fruitful in old age, succulent and fresh
they will be (Psalms 92:15).” And the border of holiness will multiply through
the children of Israel who will multiply exceedingly in the world. And there
will remain from each and every one of Israel, generations, and many
generations until the end of all the generations, and remember/grant all the
childless with viable children, for Your service and to fear You. And all those
souls from Your nation Israel who already went to their worlds (-passed away),
and did not leave after themselves living children, have mercy on them in Your
abundant mercies, and rectify them in Your enormous kindnesses. And help all
Your nation the House of Israel, everywhere they are, that they should merit to
fulfill the mitzva of yeeboom and chaleetzuh with the true and proper
completeness, with great holiness and purity, and they should merit to perform
with integrity the rectification that is necessary for the soul of the
deceased, in such a way that his soul will rise to the light of the
countenance, and will return to his place and his resting, “to go before G-d in
the light of (the) life (Psalms 56:14).” And from now (on) have mercy on us,
and on our children, and on all Your nation the House of Israel, so that no one
of Israel needs to come to the necessity of chaleetzuh nor to the necessity of
yeeboom.
And be full of mercy on all the
broken hearted that have the pain of raising children Heaven save us, and help
them from now (on) that they merit to raise their sons and daughters for Torah,
and for chuppah (-wedding canopy), and for good deeds, for lengthy days and
years {and specifically….(so and so)….}. Master of the World, Merciful [One],
You know their bitter and agitated[19] hearts,
their broken and crushed hearts, which the strength to endure has failed, see
their infliction and duress, see their tears and hear their groans, and don’t hide
Your ears from their screams, because who can bear the sound of their crying,
and screaming, and groaning, from the greatness of the calamities which already
transpired over them. Master of the entire world, “Who heals the broken hearted
and bandages their wounds/sorrows (Psalms 147:3),” heal their brokenness, and
give joy to their souls, and say to their hardships, “enough!” And have mercy
on them from now (on) and say to the angel/messenger (of punishment), “let up
(with) your hands (cf Samuel 2:24:16 and Chronicles).” And arouse Your enormous
mercies on them, and send good life and length of days and years to the sons
born to them already, that they should merit to raise them for Torah, and for
chuppah (-wedding canopy), and for good deeds, and they should have length of
days and years in this world, and they should merit to see from them sons and
grandsons, and there should go forth from them many generations, and they
should merit to beget many more sons and daughters, live and well, and from all
them there should go forth many generations, (and generations of generations)
until the end of all the generations, they should multiply, and enlarge, and
grow until the coming of the redeemer, until the end of all the generations,
and all of them should be true doers of Your will, and there should be
fulfilled in them and in their children (Isaiah 60:22), “The smallest will
become a thousand, and the least (will become) an enormous nation, I am Hashem,
in its (due) time I will bring it quickly.” Master of the World, do for Your
(own) sake, do for the sake of the merit of their holy forefathers, and have
compassion on them from now (on), that their children should persist to live
for length of days and years, bring them to happiness like the days You
afflicted them (cf. Psalms 90:15), console them from misery, and set (-mount
and prepare) their hearts[20], and
help them from now (on), that they should merit to be happy always with sons,
which have already been born to them, and which they are yet to additionally
beget in the future, all of them should have length of days and years in Torah
and greatness, “until the coming of Sheeloa (-King Messiah, Genesis 49:10).”
For SUCCOS
And merit me in
Your great mercies and in Your abundant kindnesses, to fulfill the mitzva of
Succah properly, with all its particulars, and details, and intentions, and 613
mitzvoas which are contingent/embedded in it, with happiness and good heart,
and with consummate kavana (-intention, concentration) as is proper. And we
should merit that there should be drawn upon us through the mitzva of Succah
sitting/dwelling, all the seven Clouds of Glory that surrounded Israel in the
dessert, “and spread upon us the Succah of Your peace.[21]” And
we should merit to attain conception of the holy makeefeem (-peripheral
surrounding spiritual presence), attainment of conception of ruach hakoadesh
(-the holy spirit i.e. Divine spirit), through the (fulfillment of the) mitzva
of Succah properly, with holiness, and with purity, and with happiness, and
through this protect over us and for us, and save us from all foes, and
ambushers, and from all (the) sorts of enemies that we have physically and
spiritually, and remove Satan (/adversary, impediment, temptation) from before
us and from behind us, and in the shadow of Your wings hide us.[22]
Master of the
World, have mercy and be gracious with us, and listen to the call of our prayer
with mercy, and bestow upon us shefa Eloahee (-Divine bestowal/flux), the shefa
(-bestowal/flux) of the true intellect, the shefa of the holy makeefeem
(-peripheral surrounding spiritual presence), the shefa of ruach hakoadesh
(-the holy spirit i.e. Divine Spirit). And there should be opened for us the
light of the intellect, and the motions of our intellect should speed to attain
with great speed the attainment of conception of the holy makeefeem, and we
should merit to attain the intellect which is called keddem (-before) which is
the light of the countenance, so that we will not need to use any introduction.
And through this speed of the motion of the intellect, we shall merit that the
flame of our hearts will always rise of itself. And (You should) help us always
that our hearts should be fiery with great flaming (-passion) in truth, for Your
service, and to fear You, with flaming coals (/darting tongues of fire) of Y”uh
(-Gd), and through this holy fieriness of the heart, we should merit to rectify
all the defects which we defected through the passion of the heart of the sitra
achra (-other realm, i.e. realm of evil). And we should merit to rectify
quickly all the defect of the heat and the passion that we had for physical
things, for bad desires and bad character traits, which brought us to the hands
of great transgressions and sins, through the passion of the heart for desires
of this world. Therefore I have come to seek the good will of (/greet with
homage[23])
Your countenance, our Lord our G-d, may Your mercies be kindled/whelm over us,
and endeavor in saving us, and put strong effort in rectifying our souls, and
save us from now (on) that we should not have any more passion in our hearts
for any desire in the world, even for permissible things, all the more so, and
all the more so that there should not arise in our hearts any excitement Heaven
forbid for anything that is prohibited from us. And (You should) help us, and
be gracious with us, and bestow upon us in Your compassion, that we should
merit to have holy fervor of the heart, to be fired up with flames of love for
Your Name and for Your true service, to pray and to entreat, to learn and to
teach, and to fulfill all Your commandments with great passion, with holiness
and with purity, as is Your true good will. And through this we will merit to
rectify the defect of the passion of the sitra achra (-evil realm) that was in
our hearts from our youth till today, in such a way that we will merit to truly
purify our hearts. And through this we will to express our words (-what is on
our minds) before You always, and we will merit to conciliate and appease You,
and to entreat before You each time with true new words, which will be pleasant
satisfaction (nachas) and desirable before Your Throne of Glory. And we
will merit to draw close to You with great closeness, in truth and with a whole
heart, as is befitting of Your precious (-segooluh) nation. “A pure heart
create for me Gd, and a correct spirit renew inside of me. Do not cast me away
from Your countenance, and Your holy spirit do not take from me (Psalms
51:12-13).” And help me that I should merit to come up with new insights
(cheedooshim) in the Torah, true novelties, with holiness and with purity, and
I should merit to always draw novelties of the Torah, that I should have
permission from the Heavens to reveal them to Your nation the House of Israel,
to the precious (-segooluh) nation, and the merit should be brought about
through me, and I should merit to do goodness, from the goodness that You
graciously grant me, to all Your nation the House of Israel, to reveal the
treasure (-segooluh) to the treasured (-segooluh) nation, to reveal to them
what You merit me to attain conception in my intellect, true novelties of the
(-cheedooshay) Torah, with holiness and with purity, in such a way that they
will return in complete repentance through my words, and I should not foul with
the words of my mouth, and I should not say anything that isn’t according to
Your will. He Who erects the poor from the earth, from the dunghills He
elevates the destitute (cf. Psalms 113:7), have mercy and be gracious with me,
and fulfill my wishes/requests with mercy, and do for Your sake and not for our
sakes, do for Your sake and save us, “and from before You our King do not
answer us (leaving us) empty-handed, be gracious with us, and answer us, and
listen to the call of our prayer, because You listen to prayer (Shemoaneh
Esray),” and hear our call from the depth, which the House of Israel screams to
You from a distant land (cf. Jeremiah 8:19), “the sighing and the groaning
(Ezekiel 9:4).” “You cannot hide (-make as You don’t see, Rashi on Deuteronomy
22:3,” “from Your brother the destitute (Deuteronomy 15:7),” “You must
certainly help (Exodus 23:5),” and, “You must certainly raise up (Deuteronomy
22:4).” “[He Who] Rides the heavens is to our succor, and in His haughtiness
[He rides the fifth heaven which is called] Shechukim (cf. Deuteronomy 33:26).”
(Here one
should say Psalm 29:
1. Mizmor
liDovid <A Psalm of David>, huvoo <give> lAdoan”oy <to
Hashem> binay <children/members of> aileem <the mighty/angels>,
huvoo lAdoan”oy <give to Hashem> kuvoad <honor> vi-oaz <and
might>.
2. Huvoo <give> lAdoan”oy
<to Hashem> kivoad shimoa <the honor befitting His Name>
heeshtachavoo <prostrate yourselves> lAdoan”oy <to Hashem> bihadras
koadesh <in/with the splendor of holiness>.
3. Koal <the call of>
Adoan”oy <Hashem> al <is on> hamoyim <the waters>, Ai”l
hakuvoad <the glorious Almighty> heereym <thunders>, Adoan”oy
<Hashem> al <is on> ma-yeem rabbeem <many waters>.
4. Koal <the call of>
Adoan”oy <Hashem> bakoa-ach <is powerful>, koal Adoan”oy <the
call of Hashem> be’hudur <is splendid>.
5. Koal <the call of>
Adoan”oy <Hashem> shoavair <breaks> aruzeem <cedars>,
va-yishabair Adoan”oy <and Hashem broke> es <the> arzay <cedars
of> haLivunoan <Lebanon>.
6. Va-yarkeedaim <and He
jounced (made them dance) them> kimoa <like> aigel <a calf of>
Livunoan <Lebanon (name of a mountain – Rashi)> viSeer-yoan <and (the
mountain) Sirion (which pranced by the giving of the Torah, Rashi)> kimoa
<like the> ben ri-aimeem <son of unicorns>.
7. Koal <the call of>
Adoan”oy <Hashem> choatzaiv <carves out> lahavoas aish <flames
of fire>.
8. Koal <the call of>
Adoan”oy <Hashem> yucheel midbar <makes the dessert tremble>,
yucheel Adoan”oy Midbar Kudaish <Hashem makes the Dessert Kudaish
tremble>.
9. Koal <the call of>
Adoan”oy <Hashem> yichoalail a-yu-loas <makes hinds tremble/give
birth> va-yechsoaf <and it clears away> yi-u-roas <forests> oovihaichuloa
<and in His chamber/Sanctuary> kooloa oamair <it all says/all say>
kuvoad < (His) honor/glory>.
10. Adoan”oy lamabool yushuv
<Hashem sat (-reigned) during the flood> va-yaishev Adoan”oy <and
Hashem will sit (-reign)> melech <king> li-oalum <forever>.
11. Adoan”oy oaz li-amoa yeetain
<Hashem will give might to His nation>, Adoan”oy yivuraich <Hashem
will bless> es amoa <His nation> vashaloam <with peace>.
Na Nach Nachma
Nachman MayUman!
[1] This
is the name of G-d used in the verse, however in this prayer the regular name
of Hashem was used.
[2] Jonah
2:8 – And it came to You my prayer, to Your holy chamber.
[3]
Deuteronomy 7:6, 14:2, 14:21, 28:9 – am kadosh, also similar is 19:6 – goy
kadosh.
[4]
Jeremiah 3:19.
[5]
Slichos for the second Monday.
[6] The
simple translation is very close: the Rock/Creator who has sired You has been
(so to speak) weakened.
[7]
Yaaleh vi-yuvoah, prayer of Rosh Chodesh and holidays.
[8] Sixth
blessing of the Shmoaneh Esray.
[9] Deuteronomy
29:18, the root of the word <shreeroos> is view, what the heart sees it
desires.
[10] Cf.
Lamentations 1:14.
[11] Cf.
Job 33:6.
[12] Cf.
Deuteronomy 13:9.
[13] Muruh
di’almu kooluh, these words are Aramaic.
[14]
Those who doubt or don’t believe in all the fundamental tenets of Judaism.
[15] Here
it is written “libal” in the verse it is written: “libiltee.”
[16] When
a man dies without leaving any progeny, one of his paternal brothers must
either marry her – this is called yeeboom, or release her in a
ceremonial process called chaleetzuh.
[17]
Because when there are no sons there arises the potential for all types of
feuds and schisms over the inheritance, and the need for yeeboom or chaleetzuh,
and so forth (Kesuvos 50a).
[18] Cf.
Deuteronomy 28:65.
[19]
Elsewhere this word <nimhar> is usually translated as impetuous, but in
this context agitated seems more suitable. The word nimhar seems to play on two
words, mar – bitter, meaning extremely bitter, and mahair – fast, insinuating
suffering from the quickness, thus the definition is contingent on its context.
[20] This
expression <huchain livuvum> is found in Chronicles 1:29:18 and
incorporated in the daily prayer of “Oovuh litzion,” the masters of ethics
point out that it is referring to the joy that was described in the previous
verse.
[21]
Prayer of Hashkeevainoo, of the Shema at Maariv – the night prayer, and before
going to sleep.
[22] Cf.
Psalms 17:8. Much of these requests are found in the previously cited prayer of
Hashkeevainoo.
[23] Cf.
Proverbs 17:5.
